I am struggling a bit but thought I was hiding it really well. At 2nd visit HV made an extra appointment to come back at 3months (I thought it was to discuss his colic) she admitted it was because I seemed 'fragile'!
I appreciate her coming back today and it was good to chat and I'm really glad of her support... but I'm so embarrassed to be earmarked as someone fragile! I've just realised the baby massage course I attended at children's centre (everyone recruited by their HVs) were all mums who were struggling or had PND. It was a great class with half the session as group discussion, but I never thought of myself as being obviously in need of support (though I had wondered why the ladies running the centre were so nice to me and knew me by name!)
I've had clinical depression in past and this does not feel like that at all. I try to keep positive I'm just finding it hard coping with a small baby. Getting out the house is a struggle. At home I cry when he won't stop crying. He scratches and headbutts and screams in my face when he's in pain with colic and I know it's not his fault but it's horrible when it lasts for hours.
I love him very much it's just the crying that gets me down and the anxiety over whether he's ok and never having time to finish anything or go anywhere. And not having time for DH upsets me. Surely these feelings are normal though and will get better soon? HV suggested visiting GP but I don't want to go on antidepressants.
Anyone else felt like this?
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midnightsunshine · 15/12/2015 11:54
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