Sure this topic has been done but in need of urgent help and opinions. I have weaned off sertraline (on for 5y after PND) to TTC no2.
Did sensibly. Tapered slowly. Added exercise and lots of distractions. Booked counselling and planned coping strategies. Was going well for a month or so but boom, here I am again. Not so much depressed as wired, anxious, obsessive and thoughts racing - same as before.
am unable to function without feeling trapped by extreme fear and panic attacks everywhere I go. I'm ruminating on the strangest questions (last week about how well/poorly I treated my pets when I was a child, three days of my life given over to that in fact - I NEEDED an answer - literally couldn't talk to anyone while I figured it out) and it's pretty scary. It's like I'm seeing life with crazy goggles on right now.
This has taken me by surprise as haven't been depressed for a long time (Hmm that'll be the ADs) and kind of thought maybe I was better for good. My MH team have now told me my depression is down to quite a severe chemical imbalance that possibly followed or was triggered by pregnancy no1 and I'm likely to always need medication.
I KNOW I'm much much better, close to normal even, on the drugs but I hate the idea of knowing I'm starting my pregnancy - should I be lucky to fall pregnant - with an added risk factor (to my advanced age, very slight overweight size and previous complicated delivery).
Not having dc2 is not an option - ive put it off for 5 years following last PND and I'm getting on. I really don't think I could look back and feel we didn't try to give DS a brother or sister. Really really not an option and breaks my heart when people gently suggest it.
So is it: suck this up till I fall pregnant and have baby then go back on pills to be normal (I know you'll all say that is not an option, I feel it to) or go into pregnancy with added risks (which seem almost intolerable but apparently that is my crazy talking)?
help!
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HopsNim · 13/11/2015 13:55
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