Another night feeling like a failure as a mother; I don't know how I am going to cope with the holidays coming up.
Ds1 has ridiculously loud screaming rages over every little thing. they are short-lived, but pretty frequent and frighteningly intense. Reading (he is an excellent reader, so not due to struggling) triggers it nearly every fucking night, despite the fact that I never give in and we have been doing it 5 nights a week for the last 4 years, still he has to contest it violently nearly every time. Spellings as well. Bedtime an issue 60% of the time (fine once he gets up there, but why do I have to have 10 minutes of raging on the way??)
As well as this, ds2 tonight deliberately jumped on his brother's head while he retrieved his ball from under the trampoline, despite being warned that if he did so he would go straight to bed. He did it, so I took him up, with him screaming blue murder all the way. When I got him up there I saw he had sprayed sun cream over his bedroom walls. I had been calm up to that point, but got a bit shouty then . I made him wipe it up, got him in bed, all the while with him crying, and then he went quiet and started saying he felt bad about himself for being naughty . I feel I laid it on too thick about the sun cream, I feel awful but it was so bloody irritating on top of everything else. Obviously we talked about how much I love him, what we could all do to make these things not happen again etc, and ended with giggles and raspberries, but I feel so awful about it.
On top of it all, our house is very close to our neighbour's and, with windows open, I feel all they can hear all summer is our family screaming and shouting. They have one child who I never hear and I keep worrying they will report me or something.
Ex has been a knob, I have decided to give up the 2 cigarettes a day I have and I have just had enough now. I wish I could deal with things without them spiralling so much so quickly.
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thinkingmakesitso · 09/07/2015 21:05
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