This is more of a rant than anything but I feel it's needed at the minute before I crack up.
I'll be 16 weeks pregnant tomorrow and of course nothing seems to be going smoothly.
My OH left me because he doesn't want a baby and I'm left utterly heartbroken. Can't even bare to get dressed some days or even socialise. Both our families have been supportive however I just wonder whether his family will continue to be supportive when they realise he's never going to 'come round' to having a child. He's blocked my number now since I won't have an abortion.
I've been so utterly stressed out I've not been eating so yesterday I passed out at the top of the stairs and went tumbling right down unable to save myself but thankfully my baby is ok (well cushioned in there).
This whole situation has pissed me off - I love my ex OH to bits so I can't quite get over why he's treating me so badly. I know our pregnancy wasn't planned and timing could be better but myself and our families are really happy, he's just so stubborn. I'm just devastated that what should be a happy time for me is being tarnished by my relationship breakup and I'm not sure how to handle it. I spoke to my midwife about it because I'm worried about bonding with my baby as I've felt so guilty for thinking my baby is the route of all my problems when in fact it's my OH as he's been so unsupportive. My midwife listened to me and she said with how i reacted to falling down the stairs and being so concerned about my baby she felt I'd have no trouble bonding and to be fair I know when I have by little one in my arms I'll realise that following my heart would be worth it.
My family (parents aunts, uncles, cousins, grandmother) have a sort of tradition of going for a carvery when it's someone's main birthday (like 18th 21st 50th etc) as a roast dinner is something we can all agree on food wise and my grandmother insists on paying for everyone. She wants to take us soon to celebrate me being pregnant which is a lovely idea and everyone knows about my OH leaving but they don't know how nasty he's actually been about it (I won't go into too much detail) so I'm scared they'll ask because I'll probably just break down and cry into my gravy.
My family have been tiptoeing around me not wanting to get too excited around me as they know I've had problems with my ex OH coming to terms with everything but I've since assured them they can get as excited as they want, I myself just struggle to get excited about anything right now.
I think the weather is pissing me off too, it's warm but not one bit of sun just dull clouds everywhere.
I just hope this bad mood of mine doesn't last too long, and perhaps when I get round to buying baby items I'll feel better or when I feel definite baby movements.
I feel like even if I won the lottery right now nothing could cheer me up.
If only I could grab a bottle of wine!
AIBU?
To just be utterly pissed off with everything
Frillsandspills · 02/07/2015 16:34
Your situation sounds awful, no wonder you feel rubbish.
I hope things get better for you soon.
Aww what a shit situation OP but congratulations on the pregnancy 
Sadly, you can't force anyone to want a baby even if they have helped to create it. In the same way that if you'd wanted a termination and he didn't, he couldn't stop you.
He might come round to the idea in time or he might not, but as long as he pays maintenance that's all you can really insist on from him.
However, your family sound absolutely lovely and supportive. If I were you I would try to surround myself with them and other positive people, to lift your mood.
Yes, you might cry into your gravy but I'm sure you'll feel so much better for it once you've got that off your chest.
It all sounds like a struggle right now I'm sure, and the heat won't be helping but once you're holding your baby in your arms it will be worth every minute of all this.
Things will get better. Sounds like you've got a lovely family.
I don't have any advice but didn't want to read and run, just say that things will get better and it's good you've got family around you for support.
It's a cliché, but it will all be alright in the end op. Your family sound fantastic, you and the baby will obviously be very well supported and loved. Although it seems shit at the moment it will pass. Keep up discussions with your midwife, and focus on you and the baby.
More from me.
Do you have a family member or friend you can confide in? If you have a family member who would be sensitive and caring, do you think you could tell them how bad things have been so they can give a brief heads-up to the people who will be at the meal?
Also, are you working? If not, would temping for a few weeks help take your mind off things?
You poor thing you've got a lot to contend with at the moment, no wonder you feel like you do.
Thankfully you have a supportive family to help you through.
As for ex OH, would you really take him back after how he has treated you? He sounds like a heartless, irresponsible twat who doesn't deserve you and your baby. Grieve your relationship and move on.
Congrats on your baby. Lots of people have bought up children alone, I have in the past, and you will be fine 
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