Aibu to assume doctors feel the same way as I do about clients and so hate going to see them?

[Aubrianna]

I work in an IT job which involves loads of meeting with clients and talking about their issues and wishes.

I generally get on fine with it and I do like it BUT if I am honest I often get an internal dialogue which is very different to what I am actually doing (I am hoping other people do this to otherwise I am about to come off as crazy )

So for example client walks in and starts with the words "just needed a chat about the project". Of course I smile, I play nice, I reassure but really I am thinking "oh my Fucking god seriously ? You were here last week? Can't you leave us alone to actually work on the project rather than crapping up our day with your insecurities?"

Or if someone uses vague words such as "I want it to really POP out" I feel like actually beating them with my keyboard until they use a real sentence that has actial meaning to me.

I would like to add that I am known for being nice and the company I work for has many happy clients - it's not littered with bodies of those who dared talk to me or anything.

BUT and this is my issue whenever I see anyone such as a doctor or nurse I inmediatly imagine they are thinking the same. Normally not an issue because I rarely have to see them but I recently went for a mental health problem and of course it was the worst kind of "chat" and vague problem you could imagine .

I really need to go back because things have got a lot worse for me but I can't shake the feeling that because I went three weeks ago I would be totally unwelcome and the doctor would be thinking the things I mentioned above !

So Aibu to imagine they think this or is it just one of those things you accept!

[SaucyMare]

Doesn't everyone do that during every conversation? Disclaimer i also work in IT.

[WestEast]

I work in general practice. I don't feel like that when my patients come in :)
Go back and get the help you need.

[PelvicFloorGoneSouth]

Go back and see your GP, don't assume everyone thinks like you do. GPs do the job because they care, I'm sure they get fed up with some patients but they would be a tiny minority .................. even the most patient GP has thier limits!

You went a few weeks ago, the issue is not resolved so you need to go back!

[SaucyMare]

Oh it appeRs that not everyone has a constant internal monolouge, i am worried now

[TwoOddSocks]

I think it's very different since they're in a caring profession. If you become a GP you expect 80% of your day to be spent talking about people's minor healthy problems.

[FrancesHB]

I'm a GP and I love talking and listening to patients. It's why I do the job. That and making the patients feel a bit better after they leave than when they came in.

Go back and see them

[FoxgloveFairy]

As a nurse, I sure have looked after patients I don't like. Dealing with the public, you meet all sorts. In my case, I don't let it affect my manner towards them or the quality of the care I give them, but yep, internal dialogue as you say. Like: " no, I couldn't leave the dressing I'm doing here to come over and move your water half an inch closer, when there is nothing wrong with your arms!" This translates to "yes, I'll be there in a minute." I should add that most patients are great though, and if they are demanding it's because they need to be. I have no problem with that. Only maybe half a percent are annoying. If that, really. Let's face it too. When people are in hospital, that annoying, stupid issue they want you to sort out may seem trivial to us as care givers, but can be hugely important to the patient, sometimes for reasons we don't know about. People are hugely vulnerable when they are sick and in hospital, and fairly powerless.

[CruCru]

I definitely used to do the internal monologue. With clients, colleagues etc. I had one client who wanted us to change our entire email system (multinational company employing thousands of people) because of a tiny issue.

GPs do have heart sink patients (usually the ones who are there for no reason twice a week) but should be okay with you. Go and see them.

[DaygloYellowLady]

I think that the difference is that for you, in IT, people come along, give you a project and you need them to give you at least some peace to get itdone. CoConversely, those of us who see our patients in consultation type situations need to see you to get the job done. (I'm a nurse) Also, its a real buzz when a patient leaves feeling better, especially if they've been backwards and forwards for a bit - its one of the best feelings in theworld to be privileged enough to be in a position to help.

[Aubrianna]

Saucy - I am glad I am not alone with my internal dialogue issues. Perhaps it's too long in front of a computer that causes it!.

Logically I don't think I would be someone that makes my gps heart sink simply because I'm not sure he would recognize me . I have only been there twice in the last 3 years and both of those have been about the one issue which has been over the last say 6 -8 weeks.

Cru- that doesn't surprise me, I spent time this week getting abuse shouted at me down the phone because a client claimed that important email had magically vanished from their inbox and this was my fault since we manage their email. After the abuse had slowed I logged on to their email to find it sitting it their trash -they had deleted it .

This was obviously still my fault of course.

[Aubrianna]

Dayglo - I suppose I never thought of it like that ! It would be difficult to be a doctor or nurse if no patients even came to see you wouldn't it!

(Imagines doctors begging for business on doorsteps)

[DaygloYellowLady]

Op - that made me smile. I work in sexual health and now have an image of us wandering streets broad and narrow in the manner of Molly Malone but with smear tests and contraceptive implants instead of cockles and muscles :)

[happyhats]

Go back to your gp! Not trying to diagnose you but if you are stressed, overthinking a bit or worrying excessively its better to address it asap. Not because things will necessarily get worse but because it puts an end to it!
Your internal dialogue sounds normal enough too so don't worry! If we all went around saying what we thought there would be anarchy!!!

[Aubrianna]

Thanks dayglo and happy :) I certainly think it's good I don't say what I think sometimes although occasionally it would be nice to be able to!