Long-time lurker, first time poster. Am expecting a total pasting, and deserve it. I am confused and need some sense knocked into me.
I am married. Happily albeit zero sex life. No children. I work for a man (married, no kids) whom I respect a lot and am attracted to - because he is good at his job, is passionate and powerful, and I have raging daddy issues.
Recently we were the last two left after a work dinner. My memory is poor but I know that when we were talking I was tearful at some stage. He moved around to my side of the table and was comforting me. We then kissed (I can't remember who initiated it). We left the restaurant after this and I think I said I wanted to go back to his hotel room. I didn't (think he said no, probably horrified). Stupid stupid stupid. I rang my husband immediately and told him - he was fine about it, it's so crazy he was not annoyed and put it down to a drunken thing.
Why do I feel confused about this? We spoke the following day when in the office and things are fine - though he clearly doesn't want to talk about it so there is no opportunity to find out exactly what was said and done.
I know I am lucky to have got out of this unscathed professionally. But I feel like I want more. I am pathetic and predictable. How do I stop myself from courting drama and disaster to fill my life?
Tell me off. I deserve it.
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Passpartout30 · 13/12/2014 19:00
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