I've been split up with my EX for 2 years, we have 2 DC together.
I was completely in love with him, if written down on a piece of paper who I would want as much partner it would have been him, I had PND and was extremely difficult to live (I was horrendous!) with so he left me.
Since then I have been asking him back, at first he said absolutely not, then he said that he doesn't know what will happen in the future and then he said that he has feelings for me, this is in the space of 2 years.
We see each other every week as we both take the DC's out together every weekend.
He has started to come round my house and spend time with me in the evening when the DC's are in bed, all we do is watch a film and talk we have not touched each other since the split he even stayed over and slept in my bed fully clothed as we lost track of time and it was too late for him to drive back.
He said he has feelings for me, that he doesn't want anyone else and wouldn't want anyone else but he doesn't know if he wants to be with me.
I've loved him since the day he left but eventually I accepted that he doesn't want to be with me and even though my feelings for him didn't subside I accepted it but since he said that there may be a chance for 'us' again I want nothing more than to be with him.
I don't know what to do, I used to come home and feel relaxed but because he has been here and because I'm unsure whether there is a future for us or not I am always so upset now.
He said that he would feel upset if I didn't want him to spend time with me anymore, he said that it is the only thing that he looks forward to in his life and the one thing that makes him happy but I am so upset because I want to be with him but he just says 'I'm not sure'.
I can't help how I feel, I want nothing more than to be with him and the thought of another 2 years sitting in my home wishing there could be an 'us' and him finding someone else when my feelings have developed ever stronger for him scares me as I would have to relive the devastation of losing him.
Please tell me what to do, I'm so upset.
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MsBrunette · 31/08/2014 20:46
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