My dad is a hard core drug addict, name a drug and he had either taken it in the past, currently taking it in the present or is on his way to buy it. He's been this way since he was about 21 he's 53 now.
Every penny he has goes on drugs and its been this way since as long as I can remember. Which is the main reason why him and my mum split up, she found used needles hidden amongst the toiletries in a basket in the bathroom! I was around 5/6 at the time.
I've noticed now for the past year or two that he is looking just so old and ill, you can tell he takes drugs just by looking at him. He is scruffy and doesn't care about the way he looks. He looks like a bloody hobo! His eyes are sunken and his skin looks grey, you can see all of his bones on his chest and he is skinnier than me and I weigh just 8 stone.
About 9 months ago I got a very random phone call from him. He basically just came out with " you know I'm not going to be around forever right? I have a feeling that I'm going to be here one day but gone the next" and then put the phone down! I thought hard about this and wondered whether he knew something I didn't. My grandma let slip he has been to the doctors around that time but even she doesn't know what the doctors said.
I saw a photo of him last night which has inspired me to ask this, he looks so frail and ill. His cousin was commenting telling him he is a mess and needs to stop the drugs, other friends were commenting about how ill he looks and concerned they are.
He is dying I know it and I'm just not ready for that, I doubt he will make it until my 23rd birthday (I'm 21) I don't know what to do! My gran has offered to pay for rehab but he says its pointless because he will just buy drugs when he is out. He doesn't want to stop taking them and this hurts me because he is my dad and he is killing himself right in front of my eyes and there is nothing I can do.
Being around to see me grow up isn't a good enough reason to stop, being around to see his grandson grow up isn't a good enough reason to stop. Leaving me without a father just isn't a good enough reason.
I just don't know what to do.
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jellybelly701 · 06/08/2014 08:16
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