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Recently through a conversation with my Dad I have realised that I am missing a massive amount of memory from my teenage years. I know it sounds odd but I've never realised this. I'll try and explain.
I have memories of my childhood, all good. When I hit my teenage years I went completely off the rails - it isn't a time I have ever wanted to revisit or think about if I can help it.
When speaking to my Dad recently after having a few drinks together he asked me if anything happened to trigger what happened. He said he always felt like there was something that sent me over the edge. He mentioned that it was like waking up one day to a stranger in the family. i changed literally overnight.
I tried to think back to then and have realised I don't remember. I asked him to tell me what he recalls and whilst that period of my life isn't a complete blank there are massive chunks missing. There were some fairly big things that my Dad told me about which I actually just don't remember and the more I have tried to remember the more I realise that there a large periods of those years that are completely blank to me.
I have since mentioned to both my parents about seeing somebody to try and regain some memory but they are both of the opinion that if something has happened or even just the things that went on in those years would be upsetting for me to deal with and that maybe some things are better off left in a forgotten past.
I would like to point out that I am a very happy stable person. I have done well in climbing up the work ladder, have one beautiful little girl, a very close and strong relationship with my entire family. I have been married but I am divorced and not really either looking or interest in another relationship, my marriage has left it's scars on my trust and belief in people and I also as a single parent (with my neither my daughter nor I in contact with my ex) have very little time to meet anyone let alone maintain a relationship.
Part of me agrees with my parents about leaving the past behind but the other part of me is very confused and I almost feel betrayed by myself for not being able to remember (does that even make sense?)
I'm not really even sure what I'm asking. I guess, would you feel like you had to try and find a way to remember or would you leave it be?
Sorry for it being so long.
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InsertAwesomeNickname · 21/03/2014 22:24
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