So there is this woman at school, part of me thinks she is wonderful, would love to be like her etc, the other part of me (the correct part) thinks she is a shallow cunt who is a crap parent (although she tries she just gets it wrong) and will walk over anyone to get what she wants.
So why why WHY do i smile and chat and feel privaliged if she deigns to talk to me. OK so i am not hip and trendy, fashionable and thin etc - but this is really niggling me and its got to come out.
I have always wanted to join a book club - so when she said she was joinging one i said as much. Her response was, let me check it out first hun" i mean really, hun??? i should have realised at this point shouldn't i Anyway, she never mentioned me going again but would regale us with stories of how brilliant it is etc. So anyway, there is another mum at the school and she has invited her along - and this is where the two faced pathetic thing comes along - saying how excited she was about going to the book club, i said "oh is this your book club thing" yeah yeah, going on about how great it was - i just smiled weakly and said it sounds like a laugh. Instead of saying - oh but you made it pretty bloody clear you didn't want me to join, why is that? don't i fit in with the image?
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME - so I thought, ok, bollocks to her, she will get a nod and a hello, im done, can't be bothered etc - her choice yadda yadda - but there i am at the school gate offering sympathetic comments because her dd was playing her up. When i secretly think, this is because the poor kid has got a shit life where you put your work before her (she does, this isn't anti-working mum, most WOHM that i know work for their families, but i get the distinct impression that family comes second) and your rows with your ex and your new men within 6 months of him leaving, no wonder she has an attitude. But no, im all smiles whilst im churning away these thoughts inside.
I'd never share them with anyone else (Apart from here and with my DP) but i need to grow the fuck up don't i?
I wouldn't mind but i wouldn't actually WANT to join the book club now (churlish) as they are not my kind of people, its just the thought of not being good enough if that makes sense.........
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