i have been working for a rather nasty and narcissistic person for quite some time (many colleagues have left before me or been sacked) and recently got myself a new job in a new company. Good job, good company, nice team (i think).
I should be happy but I am a ball of stress. This goes beyond normal "new job stress" imo. To give you an example, I became terribly anxious on the way in this morning with a very vivid vision of being shot at and unable to escape at my local station and not being there for dd, a fear which haunts me.
Is it completely out of the ordinary to be in such a state ahead of a new job? I am a worrier at the best of times but had never felt quite so bad.