To think I'm going a bit mad

[Doubtfuldaphne]

I have a background of anxiety and have had panic attacks (rarely) but last week I hit melt down. Dh and I were arguing which is not usual and I lost it. I couldn't stop yelling and crying and it was really scary. I felt out of control and cried for ages.
Today Ive felt tired and fluey but with a demanding toddler and teenager I had no rest despite my efforts and I felt so snappy and im crying too much. I've made ds help me with dd and yelled when he's not helped me quick enough.
I'm jumpy and on edge.
I'm terrified I'm going to go mad.
I think positively and feel ok for a few minutes but then I feel back to how I was.
My dr knows I have anxiety but nowhere near stuff like this and I'm such a jolly person on the surface, she would be shocked. Also what would she think of me as a mother? I am on ad's but the smallest dose possible and they're not prescribed especially for anxiety.
Once I'm back to normal I know I'll try my best to forget this post and carry on and probably feel fine but I'm thinking this probably isn't normal..I don't know.
Advice would be most welcome!

[Doubtfuldaphne]

Just got my period. I think this might be to blame for a lot of it but is it really ok to feel this bad with pmt?

[Punkatheart]

My darling girl - you are not going mad..sounds like you have a lot on your plate. Please go to the doctor.

[Piffyonarock]

Your anxiety might be worse because you are coming down with a virus - I have sometimes had a few days of anxiety or depression and thought I was losing it, but then gone down with a virus. Look after yourself and see how you feel when you're over your virus - plenty of sleep, hot drinks and maybe some good multivitamins? Hope you're better soon

[Piffyonarock]

Ah, just seen re your period. I feel shocking when I've got pmt, plus you've got your virus brewing. See how you feel in a day or two, maybe se the doc if you think you might need to change your prescription dose.

[ohfourfoxache]

Sweetheart I'm going to suggest something and I don't want you to take this the wrong way - Punk is right, please go back to see your GP. If you're on a very low dose of ADs then you might need either a slightly bigger dose or a different tablet. (I say that as someone who has been on a top dose of citalopram and have had to change as it wasn't doing an adequate job).

Pmt could be to blame, but explore your options.

Please look after yourself

[Doubtfuldaphne]

Thank you so much. I feel better just for shaing what I have on here. I am going to see my doctor but can't see her for another two weeks. I will hang in there until then and hopefully she will agree to increase my dose.

[Punkatheart]

Talk on here if you feel awful at any time. xx