AIBU to decide to be a sahm(58 Posts)
Single parent with no support from exP or family.
Have a child with autism who has struggled in mainstream & now in a specialist unit. Still struggles with school.
Have decided to be a sahm... Have worked, part time for since child was born, now 9yr.
Lots of reasons like constant exhaustion, no respite ever, have made myself unwell in the past through constantly being on the go and have the transition to secondary to get through.
Financially I am very slightly worse off but have made changes to negate this.
I just feel terribly guilty and a little less of a person. I am planning to finish some studies / do some volunteer roles whilst off...
AIBU to be a sahm or should I just get a grip, man up and go back to work?
YAtotallyNBU my DS has ASD and i feel so lucky DH can earn enough that I can be there for DS (and DD of course). I work from home freelance but if i'm honest it is pocket money for extras not vital income and I dip in and out around what the DCs need. If I were a single parent I would make the same choice as you.
NCFail- I'm really pleasedfor you. Maybe one day your son will appreciate what you are doing for him. Maybe he won't. Either way, you will know that you're doing exactly the right thing by him. The fact that you had a positive evening speaks volumes. Take care
Shelley- hope you can find yourself a similar solution some time in the future.
I employ people for about an hour and a half a day, to walk other people's dogs. I appreciate this may not work for you, and quite clearly it's not commensurate with your original professional skill base, but it might be the sort of thing that keeps you sane and slightly more solvent?
I've already got something similar going with one of my own dsis's who has an adorable but difficult ASD son, whose issues are making her choices limited.
I wish you had a way out too Sounds horrific - so sorry for your loss.
Please take just 10 minutes out of every day to stop and relax... That might sound like nothing but I bet you are not getting it...
Please take care of yourself - I hope things ease a little soon xxx
Isn't it sad Op thst you even had to ask the question...
I have a legal background- I should be earning 3 times what I do now. I constantly get asked when will I be getting a 'proper' job.
I found a playscheme for ds in the last holidays. Its £350 per week- 25 hours of care. 10-3. He doesn't get a personal budget for social care so I would have to fund the playscheme. How many people could afford to pay £14 per hour care for just one child? I have 3 dc& expecting another in January. The youngest dc is 5, he has no diagnosis but possibly has asd too.
Dp needs surgery in the next few months. Im nearly 6 month pregnant. I will take 2 weeks off when I have the baby. We quite simply will lose our home if I stop working.
So I work from home. I work all day & when they go to bed. I get so exhausted I feel sick. Dp works shifts. My mil died 3 weeks ago so now we've no one to help.
If I could get out of my situation I would. You do whst you need to do for you & your ds.
I haven't read all the thread. But I agree with posters saying being a carer is a job in itself. You do need to be well rested and healthy (physically and mentally) to look after yourself and others. So don't feel guilty about doing what feels right for you, because your ds will also benefit. All I'd say, make sure you're confident on your finance calculations to be able to get by. I'm about to do this - walk out of a well-paid profession and register as a carer for dd.
Thank you so much to everyone for your honesty (yes even LessMissAbs )
What I am hearing overwhelmingly is that I need to stop judging myself so harshly and concentrate on caring for us both first & foremost
Thank you for sharing your own experiences and for the empathy you have all shown. I did expect so many people to get what I do every day.
I hear your words of caution - actually looking into finishing my masters in due course
Today I walked & bathed the dog, saw friends, did the shopping & hoovered... after yesterday's 4hr tantrum / meltdown it was a perfect 'reset' of physical & mental energy As a result we had a positive evening
The decision right for where we are now
I also acknowledge that in your case going to work is not a rest because of the extra burden of hard work you carry with your son. So for you, work isn't a rest, it's an additional stress.
I didn't want you to think I was saying your life will be easier at work, simply that its not always the easy option to stay at home. Both sides have their pluses and minuses.
Bottom line is - you're doing a fantastic job raising your son alone and you HAVE to make life as easy for yourself as you can. Cut yourself some slack! People will always have an opinion, but no one has any right to judge anyone's decision to either work or stay at home.
Do what you need to do with peace and confidence in your ability to assess your situation and change your mind again in the future if it seems right to you to do so.
Even without your carer status you would not be unreasonable to want to be a stay at home Mum.
Society has mothers down as being lazy if they don't add an outside job in to the mix, but being a parent is the hardest job in the world and so many people (in my experience from working 20+ years, and in our one household too) describe working outside the home as easier than working inside the home with young children; "going to work for a rest"!
I would, in that vein of thought, caution you to find a way to get a break if you do decide to stay at home, and equally importantly keep your social life going. Your distraction, relaxation and support networks will be vital for your own wellbeing.
YANBU at all. You are caring for a child with additional needs, it is physically and mentally exhausting.
LesMis, with respect, with all the other things parents have to 'model' for children with autism - like, you know, social skills, how to hold a conversation, what to do in the shops, how to dress and self-care (apols OP I am projecting a little but if your DS is in SS then his autism must be pretty severe) I think role-modelling working is pretty far down the list. FFS.
OP - I would second pp's about not becoming too isolated though. Maybe some study - OU is fab - or voluntary work, just something to make sure being a carer isn't all you are.
I too gave up work when DS was diagnosed, his needs are very mild though so I'm now a successful freelancer, once the dust settles a bit it may be worth looking in to something like that.
I am a SAHM, one of my children has issues similar to yours. If I worked I don't feel I could do either job properly.
We struggle financially - really struggle. But TBH, I have 3 children, and I don't think what I could earn would even cover childcare costs, even if I chose to send them to school (we home ed), I would still need before and after school acre which would be too much for my asd child anyway.
Your son can't know what stress you are under, because you have been a great parent and not shown him - so don't worry if he judges you a quitter just now.
It sounds like you are reaching the end of your tether. Although you are not mentally ill just now it seems from reading this that you could be getting there, and you are putting extra pressure on yourself by feeling like a failure for taking this step.
Imagine if you continued as is though, and you did actually become mentally ill. Where would that leave your family, and your job?
It sounds like stopping work is the thing to do now, because it is the part of your life that can give in order to get you back on track. Best of luck.
Sorry I used him didn't I - her not him but yes I try and model best behaviour at all times so yep it's getting to me
Lol problem is I don't have a 'usual' experience to base it on - so tired is tired to me and I don't know if its extraordinarily tiring or normal amount of tiring
It sounds as if your son's voice is fairly powerful here. If he's calling you "a quitter" then obviously that's going to have a lot of effect on how you are thinking about the situation yourself. Under the circumstances, I guess it's understandable if he perhaps can't grasp what an effect his words are having on you but...yeah, I do think you need to find some way past that voice somehow :/
FFS. You're a single mum to a child with special needs who needs particular support atm from the sound of it, and you get no help from your child's father or anyone else whatsoever? That's an unusually demanding parenting situation to say the least. It really is not "just" getting tired "like everyone who has kids gets tired". I know I already said FFS but you know what, I'm gonna go ahead and say it again ;)
Kind of where I am actually - I should get a grip because everyone gets tired looking after kids.
You are absolutely right but I don't know how to continue to deal with going from a meeting / child being herded into school / manhandling him to school myself to packing it away to go to work and concentrate whilst constantly waiting for a phone call...
I am not mentally ill no and I want to keep it that way.
Of course I might never become unwell but if I do there is no one on the world to look after my child.
I don't know if I am right - my child calls me a 'quitter' for not working so believe me I am acutely aware of the impression I am giving - the last 9yrs of working and studying have made no impact what so ever
Am I unreasonable to not work? I fear I am - that's why I asked. I will try to give as much back as I can and support myself as much as I can but the reality is that people will judges decision as harshly as I judge it myself if I decide not to work.
YANBU at all. It sounds as if in the situation you're in, deciding to be a SAHM is a more than sensible option. If you think it's the best thing for you and your DC, do it.
As we can see just a little further up the thread there, your decision may not meet with everyone else's unqualified approval, but sod them. It's your life. And whatever you do, someone somewhere will be happily hoicking the judgy pants, you never get away from that.
You have a lot of years ahead of you when you might find it easier to work outside the home than you do now, if you still want to - nothing at all wrong with prioritising home life for now. Mothering is the most important job you will ever do and no one else can do it in your stead. I don't know of any other jobs for which you can say the same.
Whilst LessMissAbs is entitled to her opinion - just ignore everything she says
Take time out to care for your DS and yourself.
You are a carer for your child, you should be at home if you feel it's what is best for you and your child.
Have you looked into Income Support? You might be entitled to claim it alongside Carer's Allowance.
I have just been discharged from a psychologist who I saw for anxiety - I have never been medicated for it and I wasn't depressed... So no haven't seen a GP as I feel absolutely fine other than tired
On the basis that you aren't suffering from a recognised psychiatric illness under DSM IV, then YABU, as most people get tired from working and having children.
But it is mumsnet, there are a higher proportion of SAHMs than in real life, and the system in this country does permit it, so it certainly is possible. You have to decide whether financially contributing more to your DC and setting an example of a working parent is worth less than being a full time mum. Or whether the possibility of an exclusion from school warrants giving up work.
Yanbu, sounds like you have done an amazing job so far. It seems like you have thought this through properly and have a plan going about it. Your child needs you and you need to do what's best for both of you. Don't compare yourself to the next persons situation, they may have it better than you think.
Take the time to gather yourself, be there for your child and you will be fine. Good luck.
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