to feel judged that I have 4 DCs......(44 Posts)
Not only on here, but in RL and by my own toxic family too and I am sick of it!
DD1 - very much planned, mortgage arranged and house bought before the pee stick was dry.
DD2 - died at birth.
DSs 1 & 2 - twins, could hardly plan for having 2. They were conceived 6 weeks after we lost DD2, a grief shag if you will. I had just gone back on the pill but it obviously had not kicked in. I was in deep grief and shellshock at that point and did certainly not wish to become pregnant again, in fact I was shattered when I discovered it.
DS3 - I never got over the loss of DD2 and felt immense guilt that had missed out on a sister. As I got older I had a massive misplaced urge to have another baby girl to 'replace' DD2, in fact I had another DS (very much loved as they all are). I was devastated when I found out it was to be a DS but have since had counselling to deal with the loss of DD2 which I should have had 12 years ago but I got caught up in my new pregnancy and put my grief to one side. I would never have had another DC if that had not happened and only someone who has lost a DC can understand what I felt.
Please do not judge people on how many DCs they have and their perceived 'irresponsibilty' of over populating the planet. It is often much more complicated than that they simply 'selfishly' WANT another DC.
OP... nobody cares how many you have, they don't have to look after them, you do.
Stop explaining your actions because you don't need to - to anybody.
I haven't seen the other thread so cant comment on why you might feel judged. But IME people who worry about how others see them often have issues anyway and that makes them defensive.
In terms of large families I don't see 4 as being particularly large. I am one of 6 and have a ton of neices/nephews and 2 of my own. If anything I am jealous that years of infertility meant that I didnt have time to have the 6 children I would have loved.
I have 5 and am pregnant with twins! Never had any judgement or negative feeling expressed, just amazement or amusement.
If you can financially, practially and emotionally support all your children then I don't think it's anybody else's business how many you have
MoominsYonisAreScary - I think for me it's more that it feels like my family isnt complete, someone's missing, which they are. I think I have to accept it will always feel that way and having another child probably wouldn't change that feeling.
This is exactly how I feel. I have 4dc all born within 3.5 years after my dd1 died at birth and people probably judge the heck out of me (old lady in Lidl today, I'm looking at you) I've been longing for another baby since my youngest was about 1 (now 3y7m) because I don't feel the family is complete but I've started to come to terms with the fact that my family will always feel and be incomplete because my dd1 isn't here.
Also agree that 'you can have another' in so many and not so many words is something that almost all the bereaved parents I've come to know have been told.
I have 6 and most people are supportive, the only time I have felt judged was when an old woman came into the shop I own and asked if I had ever heard of contraception and if they all had the same father (they do) and i just ignored her.
The poster is being dishonest. I posted a sympathetic message on her earlier thread, but reading this, all my sympathy has gone. She posted a thread seeking help to deal with her husband who works long hours. She sounded stressed and frustrated, and a lot of people gave her very sound advice. A few pointed out the contradiction of a woman who chose to have 4 children complaining that she was not able to work. Then she came here to post this.
Life is about balancing choices. She chose to have 4 children. Unfortunately, that means that she has not been able to work as consistently as she would have liked. It is a choice she has made. For her own happiness, she needs to live with the choice she has made. There is no point asking for advice here, then stropping off in a separate thread about feeling "judged".
NO-ONE IS JUDGING YOU, OP. It is not judgement to ask why you keep having children with a man you seem to dislike, and to be unhappy with.
As a poster above has said:
"you are being very disingenuous-people on the other thread were NOT judging the fact that you have 4 dcs at all. They were questioning why you kept choosing to have dcs with a man who doesn't respect you and also how that fits in with your determination to return to work. Your posts were full of contradictions and that's what people were confused about."
Wow, some harsh replies on here. I didn't read the other thread, but the OP lost a baby FFS - can no-one see that this may have impacted on her decision to have more children?
Sorry for the loss of your dd2 op
Never feel the need to explain yourself or justify reasons of having 4dc, go for what makes you happy, no-one else
Live life the way you want to live it, as long as you aren't harming anyone, fuck what they think or their opinion's!
I am sorry for your loss.
However, it is not fair to suggest that you were being judged on the other thread for having 4 dc. People were commenting on the fact that you had further children in a situation where you were already unhappy and resentful over the fact that your DH would not show any flexibility on his job and so the full burden of childcare was falling on you.
OP, as I said earlier I don't think many people have a problem with anyone having 4 children, or even consider ti worthy of note. I have read the other thread and that is really about something different. You have struggled with childcare/work since just before your DC 1 went to school, when you decided not to look for a new childminder but to become a SAHM, and your marriage has its problems. Perhaps it would be better to stop worrying about what people on here think and tackle the problems at home that seem to be making you so unhappy. A full time well paid job and 4 children with no practical support from their father is more than most of us could manage.
I saw other thread, sorry you felt judged
Its aibu my dear, its a fucking snake pit
sorry for your loss, I think stillbirths are the most tragic thing ever
People need to read the other thread to make sense of this one.
I have 3dc and am forever being asked - in a frankly encouraging rather than judgmental way - whether I'll have a dc4. The answer is invariably "No!" I think people with multiple dc only tend to be judged if they are complaining about their inability to financially support/cope with dc but then choose to have more, or are in an abusive/unhappy relationship and continue to have more dc etc etc. If you, your partner and dc are all happy, I can't imagine why anyone would see fit to judge.
oops, I didn't realise this was a thread about a thread! Feel free to ignore
'I think people with multiple dc only tend to be judged if they are complaining about their inability to financially support/cope with dc but then choose to have more, or are in an abusive/unhappy relationship and continue to have more dc etc etc. '
grief affects people hugely, and I can completely understand why she had another baby
people are too fucking harsh on here, then when people slag off MN people get all defensive!!!! "oh MN is lovely and supportive, off you fuck". Does noone READ threads??????
when behind a screen people seem to be way too blunt, and somewhat compassion free
Actually I saw some of the comments and whilst not judging they are rather pointless, questioning why she had them isn't going to help or change the situation that the op is now in.
Her husband is an arise and she needs to decide how she is going to deal with that. The children are here now, questioning why she had them doesnt really help and it can and does come across as judge and 'don't moan you made your bed you have to lie in it'
When actually she and her husband both had them and he is being/has been a twat about pitching in and helping out re childcare etc.
The op has felt the need to defend herself and has explained why she had them. We don't all make perfect decisions, maybe the op foolishly thought her dh would actually step up and help. Regardless criticism if why she has had the children doesn't help.
You can have four children and a good job/career but you need a supportive and involved father or good childcare iuf a single parent. The problem is not that she has four children, its that she has an unsupportivd arise for a husband.
IYoni - people's comments are beyond belief aren't they? Mind you I have had the "oh well just adopt" comment in reaction to IVF treatment; I have to remind myself lots of people do think you go into a home, choose a baby and that's all fine.
Nobody was judging you OP, they were questioning your choices.
On the other thread you were complaining that your DP didn't respect your need to work not did he help with childcare, yet you still went on to have more children with him.
You even said you had your youngest because you "were bored"
It's not entirely your DP's fault you are in this situation, you chose to have more children, knowing full well that all childcare responsibilities were going to fall on you.
If your DP has been as bad as you said and you were soooo desperate to go back to work why did you have more children?
How old is your oldest? Are they 17 like some posters worked out? If so you could have had all you childcare sorted but you chose to have another child.
I personally am not judging how many children you have, I'm judging the fact that you continue to have children out of boredom, knowing full well how it's going to be and then come on here to whine about it.
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