to ask for your help to decide whether I should have a child or not? (EDS related)(176 Posts)
EDS/any other disability/perfect health - really at the end of the day nobody can make this decision for you.
I think this is entirely between you and your DH. People more disabled than you sound have made good parents, and people healthier than you are have chosen not to have children.
I understand the yearing for a child v well. Equally I think a life can have meaning and purpose in the absence of procreation.
So, yes, YABU to ask as this as this is the kind of life decision that is totally, uniquely yours . V best of luck whatever you decide in the end.
each family will have a differnt group of genes responsible for the eds type 3 so if they can find yours you can have ivf selection. Our genetist is dr ruth armstrong at addenbroookes cambridge. the DDD study is run there i think. they use research microscopes to look at the genes small structure and identify the genes. please feel free to pm me. xxx
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You say that your father lives a selfish life....and that seems to be true.However,he could possibly argue that he is living his life the way he chooses,and is deliriously happy with the choices he has made.(I'm not in any way defending him deserting you,I'm just pointing out that he may view his life far diffferently than you do).He could argue that he is happily settled with his soulmate,and feels no need for other relationships (again,Im not defending him).What I'm saying is that different horses,different courses.
There is nothing about your posts to say you would isolate yourself off from close relationships....but plenty in them that says,whatever the rationality,you want a child.
What you've asked us to do is help you decide if you should.I think most people are saying,on balance,is no.That must be incredibly difficult to hear...but please take it on board as it is given....as the advice from women who already are mothers.It's a bloody hard job at the best of times...full of demands,and full of guilt (if you work,you feel guilty...if you don't,you feel guilty....if you have 'a life' you feel guilty...if you don't,you feel guilty on another level...it really is a 'no win ' role sometimes!!)
Having a child seems like the be-all and end-all when you don't have one.Raising one is a different story.Raising one who is being born,knowingly,into a very difficult situation.....well,I'd imagine that would bring a whole lot of problems that you haven't even begun to imagine yet.
I hate to be so negative.I completely and utterly understand broodiness.Buy you asked for honest opinions.And my opinion is based on 15 years of parenting experience (both the ups,and the downs)
You need to have genetic counselling
You could have pre-implantation genetic diagnosis
How would you feel about having a child with a donor egg?
You could pay privately for screening, doula, nanny (if possible)
I would not say 'no' outright but I would say, that you should try and minimise the risk to the child by trying to see what screening you can get. If the child has EDS, then it is not ideal. But to those saying 'it's not fair' - well, that child has a life, so you get into deeply ethical territory if we start apportining fairness and rights to life to different people- is a disabled person less worthy of being alive? no. is being dead better than being alive with an illness? probably not. is never being conceived the same as being dead? surely some life is better than no life? but is causing pain and suffering bad? yes.
then you really need to think realistically - can you manage this? in terms of pregnancy on your body, and day to day practicalities.
good luck with everything x
I agree with others that this is not a decision which anyone else can make for you.
What you need to think about is how you would cope? You say that you will have difficulty caring for the baby, so who will be around, and how much can you really rely on them?
How would you cope with having a child who was also disabled? Both practically and emotionally?
To be honest I don't see how you would cope, physically with the demands of bringing up a baby / toddler / child without an awful lot of help. Babies quickly grow into stroppy toddlers and then hyper kids, I can't see how you could, physically , keep up. That said where there's will there's a way, but your dh needs to realise that he will have to be very hands on, and you will have to pay for extra help. The genetic issues wouldn't bother me as much, like you said you don't wish you hadn't been born and have plenty to give. However kids are hard work, physically, you don't often get that's perfect kid holding your hand etc, often I end up Carrying mine screaming and kicking . I wish you every success whatever you decide, there's no easy answer.
if they dont find your gene defects then there is no pre birth selection. you can't tell often until much later even adulthood sometimes. some people have eds and have no problems like my cousins. Also autism is highly represented in eds so our pead says
thats a point hadn't though about that everythingsbeachy. sorry. do get a genetics consult though and ask.
our genetist was quite hopeful they may be able to find our genes.
another point to make is that an eds child needs a lot of lifting even when older and i have huge problems doing it. but only you can make that choice, and i dont evny you it. I'm not sure what i would do.
its something i am talking through with my girls too but i hoping ivf will solve it for us.
so am I im knackered and the pain is driving me mad tonight
and all mine dont sleep well so will be up at least 3 times
My heart really is breaking for you here, I think you would make a wonderful mother but you have been dealt a really rough hand in life and I just don't think it will be worth it. I haven't even addressed the issue about whether you might pass this syndrome on, my opinion really is based solely on the practicalities.
My godparents are both wonderful people, both childless and are hugely important in my life as quasi-parental figures - I wouldn't discount the huge fulfilment you could find role in your god children's lives. It won't ever be the same but it will bring different pleasures I think.
With your heath problems and the risks to any possible baby i would say No.
Have you thought about adoption but of an older child? Maybe of one 7 + who would not need so much hands on care but still needs a loving family?
^ but people find out all the time that they will have a child with downs, or so,e other genetic abnormality that will mean a reduced life span for their child and they are still brought into the world and loved^
Very true . And sorry, I cross posted about caring responsibilities before your reply addressing that issue.
Very few people have a perfect setup for starting a family (too poor, no partner, no home, too young, too old, you name it), and it is never the perfect time, for anyone, and that is without throwing unpredictable factors or illnesses or conditions into the mix. All we can do is get on with it and deal with it as best we can, with whatever life throws at us. I don't mean to sound flippant , it's a huge decision but don't be guilted into thinking you're being selfish for considering having a child, least of all by anyone on here. Your DH sounds like he has a realistic perspective on your condition and much better knowledge than anyone here, and if he would be willing to have a child with it having seen you experience it (and there's an equal chance they may not) that counts for a lot, maybe you should trust that opinion . Wishing you all the very best x
I dont see why you wouldn't qualify but you never know until you speak to your local authority.
You clearly have a lot to give a child and i am sure somewhere out there is a child who would love to be your son/daughter.
Prof Pope at Northwick Park does EDS genetic councelling btw.
My question was going to be do you have type 4, but I see you don't, so makes it less cut & dried. My sister had type 4 btw.
Btw is NOT true that you wouldn't qualify for help as alot of councils don't use salary in that way. I have alot of help as a disabled parent (with eds), & I get it as it helps me be the best parent I can and fulfil my needs as a parent, and ds s needs as my son. It works ok and he ll never be my carer, that's something you can determine & plan for.
I would love another child, (not in a position to so is theoretical, no h)... But I am not sure I could or not. I am lucky to have a healthy non eds boy, I wouldn't want him to go through what I have had to... BUT I'm not sure he would have to as its diagnosed much earlier and we know what to do to protect them now. And then I think of the posts I read on here from parents of children with eds... And I know they go through alot.
I wonder if there is a way to find out percentages of how eds 3 presents... As its that that matters most I think. I would love to know what % of children have really acute symptoms from early childhood, what % onset on adulthood (& therefore might be alleviated by better early management). That would be my deciding factor.
My ds's both have EDS 3, and the one in a relationship doesn't want to risk passing it on to a child, so he and his DP plan on adopting.
It doesn't sound like you can physically care for a baby, but you may be able to cope with an older child whom you don't have to pick up. If this has been mentioned, please excuse me suggesting it, as I haven't read the entire thread. Best of luck in whatever you decide to do.
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