To stay at my friends place?

[VickyandAlistair]

I suffer from crushing emetophobia, which a fear of vomit and vomiting. Its so bad that I have endured many different therapies to try and combat it, they've all helped to some extent but not cured me. I don't think I can be cured. I've been like this since I was a child.

My friends have gone on holiday and me, dh and my 2 year old ds have been flat sitting for them. Last night ds stayed with my dad so me and dh could have a nice night in. When I rang dad this morning to see if ds was up yet, dad said he'd been up since 3am throwing up. My dh has gone back immediately (I should explain, we live with my dad, so when ds was at dads he was home) to care for him. I so wanted to go too but I just couldnt. I was shaking and crying, I just couldnt. I feel like the worst mother in the world. My gorgeous boy needs me. I want to cuddle him so much. I just cant make myself leave here and go to him. I'm so terrified.

WWYD? I know, I am a terrible person. I do so want to be with my ds. I just can't :(

[WhoNickedMyName]

No advice as I'm a terrible emet sufferer too and can only deal with DS being sick when I absolutely have to i.e. when DH is working away and I have no choice but to get on with it.

Thankfully this has only happened on one occasion and the whole 24 hours was one long panic attack for me .

No advice, just an un-MN hug

[Jsa1980]

Try not to feel bad again I have no real advice but he does have loving pearents taking care of him which is the most important thing. Try to relax and not worry

[CailinDana]

He's fine, he'll be happy with his dad. You can't help having a phobia and you have tried to cure it as best you can. It's not like you're leaving him to be sick on his own, he's looked after and will be ok. If you were away or at work the situation would be the same, and you wouldn't be worried. Hope your DS is better soon.

[bragmatic]

He's in good hands. One parent is perfectly sufficient. I hope it passes soon.