I am sitting at home, alone, crying like a twerp.
I have recently been prescribed anti depressants, I've been depressed for a long tone and hidden it. When I started feeling suicidal i plucked up the courage to talk to my Gp, and she was terrific.
I told my mum and my husband that I had been given the Prozac. They both kind of went "oh". Mum talked to me about it a bit. DH has made precisely no reference to it. Hasn't asked why I felt I needed them or how us been feeling of how I was feeling now, nothing. I hurt my back last week and he's just seemed annoyed that I can't do everything around the house that he expects.
I have had a really stressful day, running myself ragged getting cakes for the family birthday party we were meant to be at tonight, getting DD's wrap and tights for wedding tomorrow where she is bridesmaid. I got home stressed and tense, house was a tip, DH got in a strop about tidying the boot of my car, which had the spare tyre loose after last weeks flat, so I went and did it myself, and hurt my back again. Burst into tears and just got attitude from DH, do I said I wasn't going to come up the party (had no time to get ready by now) and that I was upset because I felt I spent my life running round after everyone else and nobody was bothered about me, cited his complete jack if interest in supporting me after a disgnosis of depression.
He just packed the kids in the car and went, didn't seem bothered that I was crying my eyes out. Mu mum sent be a text so I text her back telling her what had happened, she just replied "oh well, sometimes done space is a good thing".
I don't know how to ask for help, I'm useless at it. Good at supporting everyone else in a crisis. I just want someone up ask me if I'm ok, like they care. Is that unreasonable? I feel like I've lost all perspective. I'm having a tough time settling on this medication. I'm not ok. I feel sad and out of control and a bit hopeless. I want the people in my life to see this. Maybe I'm asking too much?
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WelshMaenad · 26/10/2012 20:34
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