I know I should really post over in mental health or antenatal/postnatal depression but I know this board gets a lot of traffic and I'm just hoping for some reassurance.
I'm currently 21 weeks pregnant with DC3. After DD1 & DD2, I suffered with PND. Worse after DD2 than DD1. I wasn't officially 'over' the PND when I became pregnant with DC3 but felt better than I had done, wasn't on meds and have kind of been just getting on with things.
Over the past few weeks, I've been feeling exhausted, very grumpy and I'm losing my temper very easily. I struggle to get up of a morning and falling asleep at night can sometimes take a while. I've also been sleeping in the day, which is very unusual for me. I'm a full time student in my final year at Uni, planning on going straight through this year if I can and juggling uni work and having the baby in February. In the last week or so, I've noticed that things are sometimes feeling surreal iyswim? Like tonight for example, I felt the baby move and was a bit freaked out? It's hard to explain what I mean, it kind of freaked me out thinking I have a little person moving about in my tummy. It sounds odd, I know. I've been pregnant twice before already and not felt like this. Feeling freaked out made me feel odd and panicky. Also, I've had it where I've been chatting to someone and had an overwhelming sense of awareness and surrealism. I don't know why and it only ever happens very very sporadically. It's happened when I've not been pregnant too.
I'm wondering whether it's because we've all been ill and still are all run down that I'm feeling all these different things. I'm wondering whether it's the stressing about uni deadlines or the fact DH doesn't have a job yet, though he is trying his hardest bless him, and we're living off my student loan plus CTC/CB. He is receiving JSA at the moment but theyve screwed up his last 3 payments so things are even tighter than usual. It should be fixed this week but I'm thinking it could be contributing. I'm wondering whether it's because we aren't really getting a full nights sleep because DD2 wakes up at least once every night. She's coming upto 16 months and she doesn't sleep through. DH and I take it in turns, so a one night on and one night off system if you like. I don't know why she isn't sleeping through, most likely one of those things.
We've had a tough couple of years, DH has suffered with depression himself and things financially have been hard. I worry about coping financially and physically. I don't like the feeling of surrealism and panic I'm feeling at the minute. Sometimes I feel ok and others not. I don't know what's wrong with me and I'm scared if I'm totally honest. Am I totally losing my marbles?
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EricNorthmansFangBanger · 24/10/2012 00:18
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