to 'out' my secret smoking?

[newmummytobe79]

I smoked when I met DH. It's not big, it's not clever.

No-one really bothered except my 10 year old DN.

I stopped when pregnant and then stupidly started again when I was really down with DC.

I can't lie and say I hate it ... I actually enjoy it - except the smell (I smoke outside, have a 'smoking jacket'/ tonnes of mouthwash/hand wash/chewing gum etc)

I plan to stop forever if/when we decide to have DC2 - I just don't want to just yet.

I'm going to a party where inlaws and DN will be (in-laws know I have the odd one and DSIL says she doesn't care I smoke as she drinks too much! )

I really don't want to smoke infront of everyone at the party but I know I'll really want one when I've had a drink etc and a good friend of mine will be there who will want me as her partner in crime!

DN will be mortified if she sees me smoking ... and half of me doesn't want to do it for her but the other half thinks I'm an adult and can do as I please (outside!)

Thoughts?

[OutragedAtThePriceOfFreddos]

While its very sweet that your DN is concerned for you, she is a child and children don't get to make decisions for adults.

If you want to smoke, then do. Just do it away from the children. I'm sure you would do that anyway, but maybe you could get someone to make sure they are distracted when you go out for your sneaky fag?

[MadgeHarvey]

It's a cigarette for crying in a bucket. Now if you were asking AIBU to rack up a few lines of coke and knock them back with a couple of absinthe chasers you might have a point. Just have a fag, or don't, but you are surely of an age where YOU decide what you want to do?

[WorraLiberty]

Exactly what Freddos said.

You can't live your life being worried about what your DN thinks.

[WorraLiberty]

Oh what Madge said 'For crying in a bucket'

< Snorts >

[newmummytobe79]

@ 'For crying in a bucket'

Just find it so hard as DN seems to rule the roost sometimes :(

I shall sneak out with my friend :)

[balotelli]

You could just give up competely and do everyone including yourself a favour.

[newmummytobe79]

balotelli - that's exactly what I plan to do soon.

It's no excuse but I have a lot going on at the moment - so a puff here and there saves my sanity