Seen the post earlier about checking Facebook timeline in case old messages were showing from 2007/2008 and was surprised to see how different I sounded then.
The 2 things I think that have changed me totally are starting my new job in 2007, where to be frank my personality has been ground out of me- I'm the youngest by a long way in an office of middle aged women have never fitted in and this has gradually knocked away at me. Secondly in 2009I was diagnosed with a life changing medical condition it was a hard year I nearly lost everything that year and it's took ever since to try and get things back go some sort of normality.
Anyway from reading those old posts it makes me feel sad for the girl I once was- happy and young. I feel like such a bitter bitch now and even though my life is changing again (for the better this time) - I'm going to become a first time mum soon I wonder if I'll ever get back to just being how I once was. Maybe I've just grown up and this is who I am now ?!
AIBU?
To think I've totally changed...for the worse
Natnat29 · 25/09/2012 08:54
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Oh god, I had a similar FB experience last night for the same reason. 
I never use the bloody thing, I just go in and tinker whenever there's another security snafu. So yes, it is a bit of a time capsule.
But I realised - after I'd stopped hyperventilating with horror - that there were positive changes in there too. I did fit a certain definition of "really happy" at one time, but it wasn't really my definition, I was socialising a bit frenetically, drinking too much, smoking too much. It wasn't sustainable for me. And it was also quite good to be able to attribute periods of shitness to definite events, and say "Well, I started feeling like this because that happened". A lot of stuff that I'd been kind of assuming was my fault really wasn't. I also realised there's stuff about me now that the 27 year old me would envy massively.
It sounds like changing your job would make a huge difference, it is rotten having a crap atmosphere at work, and it takes longer than you think to get the effects of a bad workplace out of your system. Maybe just identifying how badly it's affected you is the first step.
Wow you sound just like me, I feel exactly the same. Some of my family members commented on how I have changed and im not as bubbly and smiley as i used to be.....well guess what yes i have changed. I've now got a daughter and a house to worry about. Of course people change when they have children. I just feel so self concious about how i should be acting. But i feel like a totally different person my self, after having my dd i got PND so was on anti depressants for 18 months, so i think that has contributed to "forgetting" who i used to be. But hey dont sweat it, you are who you are and if your happy why should it bother anyone else!
YY OP I noticed this MASSIVELY...and lots of people i spoke to about it, did too
I am worried about the one that is supposed to occur at 54 yo 
although it is a long way off yet
I think there are lessons to be learnt
You cant go back to how you were before, but its good to be self-aware of the negative changes
you need to find some inner peace (man! )
be centred
i found myself talking too much...and saying things i didnt mean/ werent really appropriate. I was so self-absorbed by what was going on for me, which was a massive massive contrast to how I had been before
I wasnt really listening to other people. My head was really busy. It has taken years to work through really....but I feel much better now. Still different to before, but I like myself again
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