To not want to feel positive, and hide away for the day instead

[rmm]

The sale house that I absolute fell in love with fell through, it was exactly what we wanted and we finally felt it was the right time and could just about afford it and we have been looking for ages, nothing else is available in that area in the price range we can afford.

I've been ttc for a year now, and whilst dh has been supportive in trying naturally he won't consider anything invasive. This month for the 1st time in a year, my period is late and I got really excited. So last night I did a home test and that was negative. It feels like everyone around me is getting pregnant effortlessly, so why does my body hate me??

Dh is trying to be really positive. He is one of those people who sees the positive out of any situation and all I want to do is hide. I don't want to hear about how it's for the best and I'll be ok. I just want to feel bad and wait for the 3rd bad thing to happen.

[echt]

I feel for you, rmm.

There's nothing wrong with wallowing in it for a bit; the chin up stuff can get on your threepennies after a while.

However, fingers, legs and eyes crossed for your good luck next time. OK, possibly not the legs.

[cidrenomore]

ok, 3rd bad thing is you got me to respond so that's out of the way now.

When I was pg with DD2 I never had a positive test, and she is v definitely here! It's the hardest thing to do, but wait a couple of days, then splash out on one of the state of the art tests, if nothing else has happened.

In the meantime, a day of hiding never did any harm as long as you know it is only temporary.
Don't want to be negative, but do you suffer with PMT? What you are describing sounds like me on a bad month.

As for the house, it's shit to lose something which seemed perfect. You are allowed to feel sad.

There WILL be another house, probably better, tho' 'tis hard to believe now.

If you can, a 'duvet day' is probably just what you need right now.

Hope the world seems better soon.
xx

[rmm]

Echt and cidrenomore - thank you for replying!

I am grateful for what I have and on most days I can force myself to feel more positive. Dh is wonderfully supportive most times but his positiveness right now is just making me feel worse. I don't want to look for the bloody silver lining. He's already dealt with things and moved on and looking for the next challenge. I want to sit and cry!!

The house was so beautiful and I'm sure we will eventually find something else, but it's so depressing looking. I think I'm past the excited stage and at the frustrated stage, and I honestly thought there was light at the end of the tunnel, the whole search starts again.

Ttc, why?? Why is it so easy for so e people and why after so many years of trying not to fall pregnant when I do want to fall it doesn't happen??

It probably is pmt I'm 4 days late and I'm never late, I'm sure af is on the way. Quite frankly I just want today done.
Tomorrow has to be better. Please let tomorrow be better!

[mumwithdice]

I think YADNBU. Sometimes you need to hole up and wallow for a bit. Then after you've had a good wallow, you feel a bit more able to deal with things. Or I do anyway.

[rmm]

Is it to early for happy hour?!

[ledkr]

Things may seem worse cos either you are pg or have pmt.
Everyone has weeks like this.Last week i actually shook my fist at the sky and said "anything els you want to do to me?"
Have a chocolate day.Something good will happen soon im sure.