I love being a mum, I love my kids but I don't want to be a housewife. Everytime one of my friends (that I haven't seen for a while) asks me what I'm up to I have to say 'Nothing much, Im a SAHM' and I get a kind of pitying look from them then have to listen while they talk about how awesome uni is or how much fun they're having at their job or their plans to go around the world.
I want to be a photographer, I've done a few things for people here and there but nothing big. My problem is I have zero confidence in what Im doing, people say my photos are good but I just think it's luck that they've come out ok. I've had people ask me to take photos of their families and stuff and I nearly always say no because I think what if I fuck it up or they don't come out ok?
I want to go to uni to learn it properly and do a photography degree but then I realise I have 3 GCSEs and no A Levels then DH says he is dead set against our youngest (5 months) being put into any sort of childcare until she's at least two and even then we probably couldn't afford it. So then I get really down and think well just forget about it.
And then I think Im hugely selfish and unreasonable because I feel like Im doing nothing with my life when actually I have 2 lovely children.
Sorry for the moan.
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FrenchRuby · 18/09/2011 14:47
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