a little bit of back story ....
i'm 38 with one DD (8). When my marriage broke up five years ago I moved in with my folks (for six months). For various reasons I haven't been able to move out as my divorce hasn't come through and my ex has been a nightmare.
Anyway, finally now we're a whisper away from signing divorce papers and my solicitor has said that as soon as the clean break is signed (which is imminent) I can go ahead and buy a flat.
I've been planning this for so long and now it all seems to have fallen apart. Basically, while I earn a decent living, when I put the numbers on paper and try to figure out budgets etc. it doesn't seem to be enough.
I figure my mortgage payments will be a third of my salary, and my DD's school fees will be another third and then there doesn't seem to be enough left to feasibly live on. I know that some people will say that I should just take DD out of independent school but with all the heartache she's been through over the past few years because of her feckless father, the school has been the one constant and they've really helped her through the rough times. I don't want to take her out if I can help it.
If I move out I won't have any savings and I can't see that I'll ever have any. I don't want to rent and I don't really want to live with my parents anymore.
My parents don't me to go (I think they're secretly harbouring the hope that I'll only leave when I get married again - ha, not likely!) and DD doesn't want to move. The have a fairly big house and my mother has said that I can have the attic room to turn into a sitting room for me and DD so that we have our own space.
If I stay I suppose I can save some money so that I can cobble together a bigger deposit, DD can stay at school, I can finally start paying into some kind of pension scheme and we can have a decent standard of living.
Or I can just go and take my chances. Keep looking for a job that pays more (although I've been looking for 18 months with no luck), eat beans on toast and hope to god the boiler never breaks!
I know the sensible option but I'm just so massively depressed that at the age of 38 I live with my mum and dad. I know I'm really fortunate compared to lots of others but I feel like I left my ex because I was so unhappy and my life was meant to get better and all I've really done is catapult myself back twenty years.
so, (if you're still with me) AIBU to be feeling so despondent? Feel free to tell me I'm being a miserable cow and should be grateful that I have the kind of parents that I do, it's probably what I need to hear .....
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hippyinabusinesssuit · 04/09/2011 18:32
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