Ok, so I'm probably being unreasonable. But I got notified today that I didn't get a job I interviewed for a couple of weeks ago. It's not a surprise. My skill set only fills half the criteria, I didn't do a particularly good interview, and I took an instant dislike to one of the interviewers.
On the plus side:
- I am v.pg (any day now) and getting the job would have meant leaving new DC in childcare at about 3 months. Not a disaster as DP works from home/part-time but not ideal
- I hate the place where I would have had to work (location not people)
- Money would have been ok but not great
- The job is in a massive public sector organisation and I would have had a proper boss for the first time in years. I have been kind of autonomous for last few years which suits me much better.
- DP is convinced I would have hated doing the job anyway
On the down side
- the whole process has taken over 6 months - from when the job was first mentioned to me (my would have been line manager suggested I apply) - with a load of twatting about on their part which I can't even be bothered to go into
- It's the third interview I've had which I've ballsed up.
- I've been trying to change career path and it was probably my best chance of doing that and still be able to have a reasonable income.
- I still need to get a job - or at least some money coming in.
- If I don't start using my brain soon it will cease up completely
I know this a lot of self-indulgent ranting so sorry about that - but even though I am a great believer in things working out for the best, I am fed up that I invested so much time and energy in this. And think the only viable option now with new baby will be to go back to my old career (assuming I can get a job) until it's older and childcare is more affordable.
Also, huge kicking baby bump is stopping me from getting any sleep...