I have a severely disabled son who is still bedridden following an op on his hip. After four weeks he is bedridden, we have managed to get a community nurse to see him every other day but he still has bedsores. He is only 10.
I have to go to work every day despite this, I managed to find a job after 9 months of unemployment following a very traumatic redundancy. I hate leaving my son every day but I have to work and earn for the family, we will need my income and I am terrified of being unemployed again.
I feel that I am not sufficiently respected at work, I have a postgraduate qualification and am working towards a masters degree but am spending most of my time booking travel, scanning and sending documents and setting up meetings. This feels like a waste of my talents but I can't afford to lose this job, it took me 9 months to get it.
I want to ask you the following:
Has anyone else had to cope with the feeling of having failed in life and fallen short of your potential? How did you deal with it and have a happy life regardless?
I feel very unconfident and fearful, I think it is inappropriate to feel this way but don't know how to stop it. Does anyone know how to stop feeling fearful and to find self respect and self assurance? I just want to find a way to search my heart, locate the fear spigot and turn it off.
I want to stop feeling bitter and as if I am putting in colossal effort for meagre returns. I would like to feel as if I am really living. Do you have any advice as to what I should do? What would you do if you were me?
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LifeHope11 · 25/08/2011 23:04
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