this afternoon me and DH were messing about ? he had hold of me in the hallway and I couldn?t break free. He didn?t hurt me, I wasn?t frightened of him.
But
I am getting smaller again. He can get a proper hold on me and he can stop me moving. And 99% of the time I love that you can do that because in a lot of ways it makes me feel safe, he looks after me, he protects me. When I am in his arms ? especially at night ? I am safe
But
It scares me too that if I really, really was scared he might not realise and might not let go of me. Or if we were rowing and he was angry? Or maybe it wouldn?t be him that had hold of me and then I couldn?t get away.
I know you'll think I am silly and that I see every bloke as an attacker and I don?t, I?m a lot better than I used to be ? I did use to think like that, and now I don?t so much any more. But, when you've been on the receiving end, from more than one man...
Being smaller frightens me because I feel vulnerable. But I want to be smaller.
Headfuck, much?
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ilove · 11/07/2011 21:54
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