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TrinIsASadSpottyFatRhino Sun 10-Jul-11 22:50:09

hurt kids
hole in heart
pain guilt x100

fuck it all
I can't do it anymore

I'm giving up
fuck everything
everthing is so corrupt
everything is so sad
and unfair

fuck life
I can't get on top of it
it's too much

end fucking of.

worraliberty Sun 10-Jul-11 22:51:46


AgentZigzag Sun 10-Jul-11 22:51:48

Hug for you

TrinIsASadSpottyFatRhino Sun 10-Jul-11 22:52:12

fullstop x1000
its more than I can take

slovenlydotcom Sun 10-Jul-11 22:52:30

hello. can I help? Do you want to talk about it some more? x

EricNorthmansMistressOfPotions Sun 10-Jul-11 22:52:35

Trin are you drinking? Are you on your own? You are getting on top of it, I read you posted not many days ago saying your girls were healing. You are having a bump but you are getting on top, you've come so far


MoChan Sun 10-Jul-11 22:53:29


Don't know what else to say or do.

RandomMess Sun 10-Jul-11 22:53:56

it's a long road, it will hurt but Trin you can get there.

WomblingUpsideDown Sun 10-Jul-11 22:54:02

So sorry everything seems to be going wrong. Have you got any RL support to get you through tonight?

DoNotTakeMeSiriusly Sun 10-Jul-11 22:54:36

Come on Trin, you can and will get through this. Don't give up.

worraliberty Sun 10-Jul-11 22:54:48

Who is Neil and Duke?

TrinIsASadSpottyFatRhino Sun 10-Jul-11 22:54:57

drinking check
smoking check
argued with dp check
not able to remember what we were arguing about check
guilt check
hurt check
slight panic check

bushymcbush Sun 10-Jul-11 22:55:12

I can understand why you're in pain, but why the guilt? You didn't ask for any of this. (I'm a name changer who has been around for years)

Please talk some more.

FromGirders Sun 10-Jul-11 22:56:06

Hey Trin, I've not.been recently, so I guess i've missed.something.
Still think of you often though.
Whatever is happening just now, you can get through it.
Because you are a strong woman.

DoNotTakeMeSiriusly Sun 10-Jul-11 22:57:14

If you can't remember what you were arguing about then don't worry about it. Talk to him in the morning and everything will be fine.

TrinIsASadSpottyFatRhino Sun 10-Jul-11 22:57:27

hey girders
your name makes me feel warm
4 oclock showers
butterlyeffect, where are you?

Thruaglassdarkly Sun 10-Jul-11 22:57:56

Whatever you're going through, you'll get through I'm certain. Life can feel so bleak at times I know, I honestly do, but you will come out the other side. Can I help at all? <hug>

DogsBestFriend Sun 10-Jul-11 23:00:39

Trin, they'll all tell you on here that I'm the biggest critic and bitch going about rehoming dogs and that either, if they're being charitable, I'm not one for pulling my punches ever, or, that I'm a fucking cow. Both are right... so why haven't I done it with you lovey?

Because you've done the best thing you could, the most unselfish thing in the world, for Duke! Something I couldn't put my hand on my heart about and say that I'd do the same without hesitation despite all my gobbiness. I'd be thinking selfishly... YOU HAVEN'T. You've been through hell and back and STILL you're being kind and selfless. Give yourself a break, darling, please, you don't deserve to be punishing yourself.

BeerTricksPotter Sun 10-Jul-11 23:01:40

Message withdrawn at poster's request.

TrinIsASadSpottyFatRhino Sun 10-Jul-11 23:02:00

I'm feeling angry with things/people that I can't actually be angry with
I'm sad, deeply sad
I want my dog back
I want Neil back

but then I wouldn't be with Dp
what a headfuck
I love Neil
I love dp

I want my dog back
I want my girls to be secure and happy

TrinIsASadSpottyFatRhino Sun 10-Jul-11 23:04:21

dogsbest <hug> thankyou <weak smile>

beertricks, thankyou smile

Hassled Sun 10-Jul-11 23:05:27

Your girls will get there, and you'll get there. It's still such early days - it really is.

You did the right thing for Duke and if Neil could tell you that then he would. He's on a cloud somewhere glad that you were kind to his dog.
And glad that you're with someone nice - your DP was a friend of his, is that right? The argument will pass, or it won't - either way you'll get through it stronger and a better person for having had the experience.

FromGirders Sun 10-Jul-11 23:05:43

Butterfly is still here, just under many different names - I struggle to keep up! - but you'll find her in feminists.
Keep your chin up trin, you can get through. (and the world doesn't look better through the bottom of a glass, so all in moderation, perhaps? )

How's your draining board? ;-)

TrinIsASadSpottyFatRhino Sun 10-Jul-11 23:07:45

I'm ok
I'm g ogn to bed
I'v drinking ewater

Im srryr
I am realal y sorry
I' ok
goood ingiht

DogsBestFriend Sun 10-Jul-11 23:08:54

Bigger hugs than you could imagine sent your way, Trinity.

I wish I could make it easier for you lovey, I really do.

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