I need to have a rant. Since Wednesday I've been ill. Yesterday (Fri) I woke up feeling like a sledgehammer had been taken to my head, glands the size of small golf balls, body creaky and achey all over. I asked DP to work from home in the morning so he could help with our 2-year old. Without even blinking, he replies "Oh I wish I could, but I've got meetings all morning." (btw, whenever he's hungover or not quite feeling ticketyboo, he'll work from home).
So I seethed quietly and then struggled through the day and my mum saved me in the afternoon. I found out this morning I have a chest infection so now on antibiotics for the week. I've missed out on a hen weekend which has majorly upset me.
Thing is I just can't stop being angry with DP. I look at him and I just want to throttle him. I feel so let down, not that he could have done much - its more about just being there when I needed him. We've been talking about getting married next year but I keep thinking "in sickness and in health..." what a joke.
I'm normally so self-efficient, I'm not needy & I'm pretty happy-go-lucky. It's unlike me to ask for help, but when I do and its not there, I find it really hard to swallow. I told him how upset I am this morning, I got "sorry" and a hug several times but without much conviction. I keep pushing him away, I have a habit of putting a brick wall up when I'm upset with someone and its really hard to bring down (unless that other person works very hard). I don't want to be angry with him but I'm still seething and I just don't know how to stop!
hope you are feeling better. i had a chest infection too recently and it was very bad indeed. i was badly ill for a month and bed ridden for two of those weeks. i was really cared for by friends and family - i can't imagine hgow hard it must have been not to have support.