Am a working mother (part time) but off today with three DC, age 3 and 1 year old twins. Had a lovely day of playing, but had the madness at bedtime, the physicality of doing the bath, the lifting, the rocking the crying babies, the reasoning and pleading with a 3 year old to pick up her paints that she lovingly chucked on the floor and the guilt at shouting. The guilt at not reading enough books to the twins, the guilt at not making wonderful play dough models with me DD.
Nothing out of the ordinary actually but just wondering why am so tired and wondering why it's so damn hard some days?
I know my DC are happy, in a loving home and doing great but some days I feel a bit like, if mothering were an exam, i'm failing. I often wonder if am doing a good job and keeping all the balls in the air.
YANBU. I have that type of day most days and also feel like a failure . I've found that my constant state of being is shouting at DS1 'if I have to ask you again you're going to time out'. Maybe that'll be my epithat . Please don't tell me that you bath your children everynight though as mine don't get washed from one end of the week to the other and at the moment I'm a SAHM . I keep telling myself that it's only clean dirt.
We've just had our first holiday post baby and boy was it different to our pre baby lazy sight-seeing and generally relaxing holidays! An adventurous 8 month old has kept us busy so I can only imagine your experience with a 3 yr old and 1 yr old twins! Parenthood is difficult - I feel that most days even though I adore our dd and love her completely and utterly and am so grateful we have her in our lives. It's a constant worry and continual feeling of guilt that you're not quite doing enough. I'm sure you're doing a fantastic job.
Don't be so hard on yourself doradaisy they dont need baths everyday it dries their skin out tbh. Why do you feel guilty for not reading to one year olds enough, they dont know what your on about. Dont waste your time shouting at your three year old, just ask her to help you clear up.
Try not to be so hard on yourself. A 3 year old with 1 year old twins is going to test a saint. It can feel relentless at times, and we always feel that we could have - should have - done more. I know I do. I feel guilty too when I am relieved my girls (nearly 4 and 15 months) are in bed.
Aurynne, the OP's partner could be anywhere, or she may not have one. Not all fathers are available 24 hours a day. My husband is dead, therefore I parent by myself.