Yep, I used to get terribly involved with a forum and was literally on it 24/7.
The day I was accused of being a drunk/alcoholic/racist/mysogynist/bigot & anything else you can name really, was the day I left internet forums.
Sorry MrsCrafty, couldnt help but note the irony of the above being posted on an internet forum
Im going thru this very issue now.
In the wider re-assessing my priorities, confronting the media information overload psychological disorder many of us are succumbing to these days, etc, etc.
The problem is it really is a psychological addiction, a crutch.
When you get home your soul and higer brain tells you you need to read that book, pass that exam, grow those veg, write that letter to a long lost freind, play that game with your child, do that meditation or yoga, make that herbal remedy, etc, etc, all the stuff thart indicates personal development and improvement and adventure.
But when you walk thru that door, your small quick fix brain tell you to switch on that telly, have that fag, just catch up wotyh my FB 'friends', check out the lastest disagreement to your forum POV, eat that mcdonalds, etc, etc.
You tell yourself its not interfering with your personal development plans for that day, as its only gonna be 10 mins to help you wind down first.
But your higher source knows your small brain is pulling a con, but you still beleive it evertime.
then, unsurprisingly, the quick wind down has become your eveing and the menaing of your life, has become you identity.
another day, another disapoinment.
But you cant kick this shit straight off.
you need a plan.
First you need to have long conversations with yourself:
Is a forum about mothers really about "real mothers", or is it a forum about "mothers on a forum", (in my revelation, it was dogs).
On FB, am i catching up w/my friends, or am i catching up w/my digital representation of my friends?
Is it that important in life to have OPINION. Is opinion and the need to be seen to make it loud and proud really tha that important in the grand scheme of things.
Does that arrangment of 5 words replied to me really matter?
Have i noticed how all the people on the TV that i admire spend all their time not wathcing telly and achieving stuff?
Have i noticed how all those great movie characters dont have TV's?
Have you heard that Tv presenters barely have time to wathc telly, as they are high achievers?
Do i like the feeling of constant self guilt and disappointment?
Do i remember how i felt more fulfilled in my childhood of climbing trees, etc?
Do i remember the feeling of quietitude and slowness?
Do have depression, anxiety disorder (latter in my case)?
How is my soul?
how are the souls of my loved ones?
What would i truly like from life?
After all that, you think, fuck.
My next stage was to embark on cognitive behaviour therpay exercise via a book from the library and a site called moodgym.
All free.
CBt tells essentially helps you to coach your brain into new habits, processes, and behaviors, as a oach would do for your body.
Then make small steps:
In my case.
Dump FB, replaced it with some better directed IM options such as skype (free).
Got my fiance, whom, btw, has a self discipline on the net, to passowrd the laptop at agreed times.
Got rid of the telly and rely on various web sites for shows i find a specific choice of pleasure to wach, instead of the usual telly is on all night, just watch it all approach.
I could not have dumped the telly without the option of radio.
As you do need that background sound to fill the void.
But the radio seems to add somehting to your environment...relaxation, comfort, support, unlike the whirs, flicker, amnd noise of the obtrusive TV.
One can read study etc to the radio, unlike the TV.
A DAB radio is a God send
Some yoga and meditation
A list of things you wish to do instead.
But DONT focus on the list...let it drip into the new schedule in an evolving way.
You will notice a new sense of homely pottering in the evenings, you wont have a big housework schedule, you have a spontaneous flow about it.
Allow for unexpected events, such as the flu.
in fact, expect such events, so you wont be annoyed when they get in the way.
And the rest im still working on, but im getting their.
I can actually feel my inner being has changed and is changing the last 6 weeks, Almost as if i am becoming a new person.
I have slips up, you are meant to. Its feedback for learning and tinkering.
Mumsnet has been a bit of a slip up of sorts, not that i am just on it, but the way i have got hooked into some unnecesariness.
So i customised the site and dont look at some stuff.
Im still deciding if i need to be on here, this thread has offered me one of those self assessment learning moments, my higher self is telling me the effect MN has had on my new self may not have been beneficial to the plan, should i stay?