Been on here since my eldest was born 18 years ago... commented on a few posts...I really need help now tho
Funny as I sit here with my glass of wine and feel confident enough to type this, I wanted to do it last night but my partner got up and I couldn't...I went to bed..I'm sitting here right now, after two bottles of wine (between us) but I've been guiltily of sneaking wee drinks in here and there and I just can't do it any more.
I have never admitted I have a problem with alcohol but I know I always have if you know what I mean? God this sounds terrible.
I'm very insecure, was with my ex for 17 years and have three gorgeous daughters, I left tho 3 years ago as we both knew things weren't right and we were both just going through the motions, as much as it was a shit relationship we are actually quite amicable now but he does like a bottle of red wine about every other night.
I met a new person and thought he was great but found out he was watching porn when I was away at work, I know that's not a big thing for most people but I just can't get over the fact he was pleasuring himself to these other girls and it's killing me...I wish I could just get over it.
Alcohol is the main factor tho and I can't just seem to have " a couple" as he says, and he is right...If there is anything left in the house I will drink it..I'm sick of It and I'm just lost now..My dd (12) has started to notice and it's killing me....if it wasn't for my girls I know I wouldn't be here, and that's not just saying that for sympathy, I can't let them be on their own.. really lost right now, my girls are my world but I just can't help think they would be better off without me but I know I know I love them so much and wouldn't put through me being a selfish bitch?. But then I don't know if they would be better without me?
Thanks for listening, don't know what to do but going to read this back and hopefully get some sleep x
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Mummybear80 · 09/09/2018 01:22
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