Hi
Not sure if this is the right place to post!
I've always had an addictive, all or nothing personality, ran up £15k of debt in three years due to a shopping addiction, cant enter a casino without blowing loads, even when on a weight loss programme I take it to extremes and enter into disordered eating. When not on a weight loss programme I binge eat. Can't buy family size bars of chocolate etc as I will eat it all straight away and not even enjoy it.
So when I drink, I drink good! Luckily it doesn't take a lot to get me drunk these days but I'm finding my tolerance increasing loads. This week I've had a hen do, a wedding and a family party and caned it on the wine each time.
This isn't a typical week for me as we don't go out much at all, but I have found myself opening the wine at home of an evening and finishing the bottle even when I've promised myself I won't.
Wouldn't call myself an alcoholic I am just aware of who I am and crave MORE MORE MORE of that pleasurable feeling.
So my new plan is simply no drinking at home. So on the rare occasion we get a night out, then I can let loose without feeling horrendously guilty and worried about my health. If I don't have it in the first place, I don't actually want or crave it but don't feel the need to go without forever (unless this plan fails.... Which it won't 
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Today is day one... Long may it continue!
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Giving up the wine - addictive personality
queenworkerbee · 26/08/2018 20:27
Fruit Cider, thank you.
I certainly recognize a lot of the traits in myself that I had previously attributed to my GAD.
You didn't sound judgemental at all.
Never drink around DD but before she was born I was a train wreck with drinking all the time and putting myself in unsafe situations. Never want to get to that level again hence why I am reducing MASSIVELY. I have a great husband, daughter and job and never want to jeapordise that.
It is possible I have unresolved issues from my past that could contribute to the way I am.
It's nice to have a safe space to talk. 
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Good, because sometimes when you mention EUPD traits to someone they freak out and go on the defensive.
I think for me learning about the ACE study (if you have trauma from childhood have a google!) was the turning corner that made me love myself more and become a better clinician. I work in substance misuse because I recognise that it could easily have been me.
I had all the classic signs and no-one picked up on it until I was 30. Self harm as a teenager, Traumatic childhood, eating disorders, anxiety and depression, excessive drink/drug use, keeping excessively busy and entering a cycle of burning out...
It's not childhood so much, I had a happy childhood and was very lucky - it's early adulthood that I have unresolved trauma from.
I will have a Google thanks!
Yep, all those boxes are ticked for me too, also being a massive workaholic and obsessed with being the 'perfect' parent...
I have two DSis, one with aspergers and one bipolar, couple of alcoholics in the extended family so it's a family full of issues 
I like the self care ideas from MIND. I love that more research is being done on MH than in the past and there's less stigma attached (although a long way to go admittedly!)
Left right centre I'm not that bad I usually just have a great time however it's just too much for me and affecting my mental state which is why I want to stop. And try and train my mind to be able to have a few and then stop when I get tipsy. If I find I am unable to do that then I will be stopping all together.
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