Deep breath.
I stumbled upon the soberistas webchat and something has clicked for me... but I'm kind of nervous.
I know I'm sick of hangovers. In fact I'm sick and tired of feeling sick and tired.
My eyes are always bloodshot. I never have any energy, and haven't for years. I'm overweight. I'm anxious, sometimes depressed.
I'm so overwhelmed by things that need doing to run our home, and I'm putting jobs off thinking, I'll do that when I get a non-hangover day, but that never comes.
I'm losing weekends to hangovers, and that's shit for my kids.
Last week I lost actual stuff - keys, bag, purse and in my head I'm not the person that does that. Other people get drunk and lose stuff but I don't. But I did. Ugh.
I put last week's units into an app and I'm shocked to see it was 80plus. Horrific. That was with two big celebrations but could also just have easily been an ordinary week where we go for boozy lunches and carry on.
I don't want to feel like this any more.
BUT.
I'm dreading my DH's reaction. He's going to take it personally. That I won't be his drinking buddy. That we won't get pissed together, have a cuddle and watch Netflix. He'll say, 'but you need it in social situations. You hate being sober on a night out.' I'm worried he'll think I'm boring. He thinks our booze in take is fine because lots of our friends drink more and get in worse states.
I'm worried my friends will think I'm rejecting them. That I'll be flat and tense on nights out.
I don't want to drink this weekend, but we have a night out in honour of a friend. It will be so obvious if I don't drink, people will ask if I'm pregnant or something. I'll be embarrassed. I'm socially anxious and without a loosener I freeze a bit. I need to find other ways of dealing with my anxiety, because I'm killing my self in a bid to numb myself.
Agh. Any advice please? From anyone who is at, or has been at, this first stage of thinking about it?
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Starting to think about giving up the booze
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Prochaska · 03/02/2017 10:12
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