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My first born is 21 today

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littlemissmoomoo Mon 17-Jun-19 04:55:11

I had my first baby when I was 16. I was forced to give her up for adoption. My dad was bringing up me and my 3 brothers alone after my mum passed when I was 12. Dad said if I didn't give baby up then I wasn't welcome home. I begged him. The dad denied baby was his. There was nobody else.
I left and took baby with me. For 3 days we wondered the streets, sleeping in the park. Baby wouldn't stop crying. I knew she was hungry. My milk had come in but I didn't know what I was doing.
So I went home and told dad I couldn't cope. Please dad, help me. Let me keep her. No. He arranged for her to be taken into care.
I don't recall much after that. I remember a lady taking her. The next few weeks were a blur. I tried to kill myself. Ended up being sectioned for 5 months. Dad came to see me one day. He said he was sorry, he shouldn't have made me give her up. Seeing me almost die made him realise how I felt. He said we'll get her back. It was too late. She was adopted.

Today she is 21. My darling daughter, I'm sorry. I hope you are happy and have had a wonderful life so far. I wish you were with me.

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tuttifritti Mon 17-Jun-19 05:19:24

I can't even imagine how you are feeling OP. Sending thanks

What would you want to say to your baby girl today?

EightWellies Mon 17-Jun-19 05:55:47

flowers for you littlemiss

darkriver19886 Mon 17-Jun-19 06:54:26

I am so sorry! 💗
Thank you for sharing.

OurChristmasMiracle Mon 17-Jun-19 12:00:35

I am so deeply sorry. I hope you are doing well and are in a much better place now.

Did you name your daughter? If so would you like to share (please don’t feel you have to)

Thoughts are with you and happy birthday to your daughter and Sorry for the loss of your mum so young x

gabsdot45 Mon 17-Jun-19 12:23:32

What a sad story.
I hope you have been able to find joy in your life since then.
And maybe someday you'll meet your daughter again.

EightWellies Mon 17-Jun-19 13:40:00

No offence Miracle but littlemiss please don't put your DDs name on a public forum when you have already shared her date of birth.

littlemissmoomoo Mon 17-Jun-19 14:46:59

Thank you every one. Yes, I did name her, but I'm sure her name will have been changed anyway. I named her the same name as my mum and my daughter I went on to have after has the name as her middle name.

I went on to have six more kids but there will always be a special place in my heart for my firstborn

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topcat2014 Mon 17-Jun-19 18:26:37

I am sorry for the way your dad treated you - it sounds positively victorian to me.

I hope you are doing ok these days.

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