DS moved in in January, at just over a year old. We met his BM in February and it was a really lovely meeting. We really connected and she was a very sweet young woman who just wanted what's best for DS, but who would not have been able to cope with a child. I should add that he was removed at birth and she had her final contact with him last Autumn.
We sent our first letterbox last month and today CAFIS called me about it. Said BM had received the letter a couple of weeks ago and is working on her response, and really liked the letter and appreciated that we sent photos.
However, for very obvious safeguarding reasons, we only sent photos of DS where he could not he identified - so mostly from the side or behind, but showing him having fun and doing nice things (not rubbing it in, BM had asked for this!). The CAFIS worker asked me "is there any particular reason that you decided not to share photos where she could actually see his face??".
I feel fucking horrible. I went to such a great effort to write what I thought was a really lovely letter and have been filtering photos into a separate album on my phone regularly so they can be included. When he is doing something particularly lovely I always take a non-identifiable photo so it can be included. All in all I sent approximately 75 photos FFS which I thought was above and beyond, and now the CAFIS worker has made me feel like absolute shit for not sending photos of his face. Her reasoning was that it's such a recent adoption that BM knows what DS looks like anyway. My feelings (fully supported by SW) are that he has changed considerably since she last saw him and actually she might not recognise him in a crowd anyway.
I know BM is probably a bit upset about this but this was what we agreed when we met and she was ok with this decision, and from what she has posted on her Social Media (yes I know I shouldn't look but I did) she was delighted to have received so many photos. So actually I do feel that this is mostly coming from the CAFIS worker, I feel judged for not showing his face.
Sorry I just needed a rant. I tried so hard to get this right for BM and now feel like I've fucked it up anyway.
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PurpleMac · 25/07/2018 16:01
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