5 years on

[OurMiracle1106]

5 years ago today the placement order hearing was wrapping up. I had given my evidence the day before. My heart was shattered into pieces but I tried to remain strong.

5 years ago I knew deep down my son wasn’t going to be coming home. Today they set the date of the judges decision for on the Monday at 2oclock.

I’m just really struggling. I miss my son so much. I hope he knows that I love him and I didn’t give up on him, I just tried to give him the life he deserves.

[PoppyStellar]

this must be a really difficult time for you. Obviously I only know you from your posts on here but one thing that always comes through in your posts is how much you love your son and how you wanted to do the right thing for him. You did. You didn’t give up on him, you made a really tough decision with his best interests at heart. Try not to beat yourself up about something you can’t change. Look after yourself and please reach out to any friends in rl who can support you too. (As well as posting if it helps)

[PoppyStellar]

How are you doing miracle? Hope you are ok

[OurMiracle1106]

Each days a struggle if I’m honest at the moment and not helped by other issues with housing. I’m accessing support though so hopefully it will all work out.

Thank you for asking poppy

[Italiangreyhound]

miracle you are so strong bit you are allowed to feel all the emotions you feel. Huge hugs to you.