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Fair warning in the title. I'm in a bloody bad mood right now
DD2 and her wonderful-lovely-clearly-better-than-me mummy have been continuing their lovey-dovey reunion. Which is so clearly to me chaotic. Their 'decisions' are all all ill thought out, spur of the moment. They have been doing more and more together - movies, shopping, eating out, going to the park. Don't know where mum gets the money from. DD has some nice new toys, dvd's, cd's etc from mum
Who is completely as self centred as DD. She is unable to consider her actions or their consequences. She is unable to grasp what DD's needs are and unable to give her boundaries. For instance she buys DD whatever she wants as long as she has the money with her. DD has the new Barbie doll and Bratz doll she liked the look of. But mum, unable to grasp the implications of her wanting this kind of thing aged 17, loans her a film she liked herself - an 18 rated gory horror movie
Likewise DD is unable to grasp that her mother actually has her own wants, needs and expectations. She thinks in terms of getting what she wants only
Neither of them can consider or realise the fact that reunion is a two way street requiring giving and understanding on the parts of both sides..let alone actually understand or give to each other.
Of course I know this can't end well in the long term. This isn't how a relationship works, not any relationship of any kind works out on this basis. Indeed even now DD sometimes will express mild annoyance over things her mother did or said because it wasn't exactly what DD wanted her to say or do. Annoyance that her mother's every word and actions do not entirely correspond with what she would like.
I don't want to sit here and wait for DD to get hurt, for them to have a massive falling out which seems inevitable. But i don't really have any other options
If you're wondering where SS are, wonder no longer. I would like them to be at the seaside, taking a long walk off a short pier. But SS don't do what you want. In reality they're at the public baths, having a deep cleansing ritual to fully wash their hands and minds of the responsibility of helping my family. Only PASW was on my side. But crucially, not her manager. At least PASW really tried to help. We are still in a little contact, fat lot of good it is though.
Oh and the bastard letterbox coordinator just sent a reminder to me to send in my letterbox letter about DS. I'M NOT BLOODY DOING ONE. He doesn't want me to. He wants nothing to do with her. I told coordinator this. Doesn't bloody listen.
DS is miserable and angry about this by the way. I'm so angry at DD and her mother for doing this to him. Poor little boy i want to wrap him in cotton wool and shield him from this. I even feel guilty about my decision to adopt him. I pushed for it. But he's suffering because of DD2 and her problems
Lilka hi, I am so sorry this has gotten to this stage. Is there anyone who can help you, a charity or another other organisation that can give you the support you need, the help with making things happen etc? I don't know enough about DD to know what kind of charity or organisation might help.
Please do not feel bad about DS, I know it is very tough but he loves you and I am sure he will be able to get through this with your help, which is why you need all the support you can get.
I know you will be as supportive as you can of him but please do not beat yourself up about the fact you adopted him!
As DD is still only 17 is there any part of the health service or social services who might be able to assist?
Thinking of you.
So sorry this is continuing Lilka. I really do not know what to say. Have you had any dealings with your local CAHMS? Can Adoption UK help?
This is where things need to change, adoption process does not need to be sped up but support should be in place for every child that has been adopted at any age.
Don't feel guilty about ds you are doing the best for all of your children, you are the best mother for them.
I know how you feel though, I often wonder if we did the right thing by bringing dd3 into our family, but I know deep down we did, we are a family.
So sorry to read this. And to admit that I have nothing helpful to say
< passes box of hankies and glass of wine>
It's like some stupid teenage romance , except one of them is supposedly an adult . You are right, you have no choice but to wait until it implodes and pick up the pieces.
Don't waste your energy trying to get SS to intervene.they will do nothing
I know a case where they actually facilitated contact between the birth mum and the 15 yo adoptee, and arranged a meeting for the young persons 16th birthday. All without the consent of the a parents . Child was removed from the birth mother after years of neglect
I really feel for you, nothing helpful just wanted to share. I am not a mother to an adopted child but I have a long term 'parental role' to a not so young adult. I have been her 'person' for over fifteen years. We have negotiated much that is familiar to many here, abuse, neglect, care homes, failed placements, grooming, great social worker replaced with shit ones, endless review meetings, abortions, no education, housing issues, early parenthood...
Throughout all of this she has had different forms of contact with her birth mother, a woman who facilitated her abuse and neglected all of her children, several of whom died as babies.
They get together sometimes, get closer, get angry, fall out then do it again. Progress has been slow but now they are probably separated emotionally and practically. She had to work through it and didn't have the tools to do it quickly or analytically.
I am sorry that you are going through this and that you know how it will play out but how incredible that she has you because she needs a real parent now more than ever. My girl/woman appreciates my input so much now...
Your son suffers, yes but siblings are all give and take. Actually he sees you parent under the toughest of emotional pressures and learns much about love and safety.
It will go tits up, your family will endure, your anger and upset is entirely appropriate and I hope you have good support. Take care
Thanks for the support
There isn't any organisation who could help - the practical help I get is the time out and listening ears from my mother, best friend and my DD1. Which is an enormous help to me, it just can't do anything for DD2.
It's also good to have support here as well. I spend my time offloading on everyone, I should say thank you as well. The people on this forum are for the most part so kind and supportive. I'm glad to be on here
Thanks Lilka good to hear we have our uses. .
Thinking of you and your lovely and sometimes troubled family. It will get better. I love the saying it will all work out in the end, if it has not worked out yet, it's not the end! Corny but it makes me smile.
Thinking of you.
I hate to say it, but I really don't think there is anything you can do for DD2 at the moment beyond what you are doing already; being there to listen and support her. I think your fear that sooner or later it will crash and burn is all too likely to be true, but I doubt there is anything you can do to prevent it. At least you are there and she is still living in your home, so when the crash comes you can help if she will let you. At her age, I doubt there is more you can do; you certainly can't shield her from herself, sadly.
Hopefully one day DD2 will come out the other side of this infatuation and see understand the need for a more healthy relationship with her BM. I hope your DS can also take some strength and comfort from seeing your strong and consistent love for him and his sister.
Could after adoption help to support your daughter?
She could do with someone from outside the situation who can make some attempt to keep her grounded
She sounds emotionally immature, like my AD, and not able to make rational choices
She needs some sort of support/advocate CAMHS I have found to be totally useless but after adoption or even NSPCC as she sounds vulnerable
They've gone out together today
Her mum came to the house to pick her up (DS was NOT here at the time, he has been having a fun day out with his eldest sister).
I've been doing some laundry and listening to the radio
I had to turn it off for a bit, because they put on a song that DD used to listen to loads (she sticks songs on repeat at full volume). Song is fine is the verses, but the chorus just about killed me
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, here, here
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
Near, near, near
I wish you were here
Haven't posted so far as I've been polushing my pearls of wisdom carefully. Here's what I've got so far...
'oh bugger Lilka, sounds shitty'
I am working on more but that's all I've come up with so far. Does it help?
That's just fine Kew
Don't worry. I'm not coming on here expecting a stranger saviour to swoop down and offer the advice of redemption which fixes everything in 3 easy steps. Although that would be nice.....
All the kind words of support are helpful to me
In a very odd coincidence, this evening (DD safely back, behaviour off the wall) I sat down to read my magazine only to disover a lovely real life story about a birth mother and son from the USA who reunited and fell passionately in love (with sick inducing details added), and have spent thousands on IVF to have a baby together. Cute baby picture added. Which reminded me of a very similar story I read about a year ago which follows the same pattern - mother gives daughter for adoption, but obsesses over her, and when they reunite when the daughter is 19 they fall in love, have amazing sex and move in together, and are about to embark on IVF treatment.
I'm telling you, reading about their amazing sex put me right off my dinner. Vomit. Vomit. Vomit
So it could be worse for me right now... <puke>
I have absolutely no advise to offer but just wanted to say those stories are called Genetic Sexual Attraction. The brain recognises similar traits and physical likenesses to itself so finds it attractive (the brain is a narcissist). The only relationship it can understand (seeing as there is no familial bond) is a sexual one.
Generally happens to siblings/parents & children who meet for the first time as adults.
I'm sorry, I really wish I had that 3 step plan for you rather than useless(& disturbing) explanations.
Yes I've heard about GSA and the theory behind it. I even could get as far as supporting siblings in a relationship.
But not mother/father and child. Support ends there in my head. You don't have to act on your feelings. I seem to remember the woman who coined the term GSA did not act on her feelings. How do they think it's acceptable to have sex with someone you gave birth to??
There's no need to be sorry about not having my 3 step plan! Thanks for the support
O Lilka, this is so crap. It must be like watching an accident about to happen and there's nothing you can do to prevent it. I thought Soupa's post above was full of wisdom and she speaks as someone who's been where you are. I wish we could magic it all better for you.
We might be able to cobble together a 24 step plan between us?
Do any of the Steps involve copious consumption of wine and chocolate? Because I'm way ahead of you in that case.....
That is step No. 1..... Eat own body weight in chocolate, it is Interchangeable with drinking copious amounts of alcohol. Personally I prefer the chocolate.
or if preferable.
Maryz you are alway so full of wisdom Yes I have decided to stop letterbox contact for DS until and unless a time comes when he wants to start it again. It's quite a turnaround for him as he was never upset about letters before all this happened - he even picked out photos to put in. I wonder if those letters somehow didn't feel 'real' to him? Like the firstmother in the letter was an abstract imaginary figure. But now he's seen her, she's actually real, in the flesh, and all his insecurities have come out in full. I was so annoyed that the letterbox co-ordinator did not listen the first time when I phoned and explained I wasn't going to do any more letters. I bloody hope she listened this time because I'm not going through this a third time. Woe betide anyone who sends me another 'reminder' !
Of course you are so right that I must look after myself. To be honest though I'm struggling to do any more than have 5 minutes to myself right now. DS is suddenly regressing, DD's behaviour is really erratic, and because my other DD has developed Pelvic Pain and is struggling to get around a lot (going out with DS at the weekend really did not help but she insisted), i need to help her out more, you know do some of her shopping, look after DGD a bit more. DGD is lovely but certainly not relaxing. And I also have part time work (not a lot of hours and quite flexible luckily) and my own house to run on top of this.
I need to find time to do things for me, even a nice long hot bath would be wonderful.......
And I'm struggling with the disengaging as well. I pretend nothing is happening when she, DS and I are together, and I'm really cross about the effect this is having on DS....and yet I want to be involved in this 'reunion' When she's with her other mother I desperately want her back...even though she's hardly easy to have in the house. I want to know what they're doing and for her to tell me how their meetings went...at the same time I don't like knowing. I can't square my feelings at the moment, they're all over the place.
Wise words indeed, Mary. I'm only sorry you've had to go through what you've had to go through to get to be so wise.
Thank you Maryz
I also wish you hadn't to go through this
You are right, worrying is certainly an emotionally exhausting excersise...and ultimately isn't changing the situation. I need to try and disengage from the situation more. And I'm sure it will take some practice but I must try to do it.
I also need to find things to do with DS and for me. I don't really have the time or money to go out often but maybe schedule time in to play games together and just do some fun things.
For me, I still want my hot bath with bubbles, candles and mint scent.
Thankfully I also find writing quite a break. Even writing about this situation on MN is somewhat cathartic.
Speaking of which, today the finishing touches were put to some writing, and tomorrow i think I'm going to be published on a blog. Nothing very exciting, an interview about my adoption experience, but it was interesting writing it, and oddly enough, a distraction. You'd think writing about adoption wouldn't be a distraction from my current, clearly adoption related, problems but in fact I lose myself in writing and forget everything else going on.
Which i suppose proves i do have the ability to compartmentalise and I will be able with practice to put the DD situation out of my head when she's with her mother.
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