But I just can’t get excited or enjoy anything. Nothing interests me on telly, on my phone, no books, no conversation, no cooking or anything I usually enjoy like baths, texting friends, everything feels like a chore. I am snappy with my kids, I want to just crawl into bed and stay there.
They’re only little and my husband is so wonderful. But obviously everything that’s gone on this year, the new changes to Christmas plans, I already wasn’t going to see my parents on Xmas day like we usually do because my beautiful mum is receiving chemo. A close family member has died (not covid) and there’s big changes going on at work and job at risk. The sport I love to play with my friends obviously we can’t at the moment...
I know I’m no different to anyone else and EVERYONE is having a really difficult time right now but I hate feeling like this. I have never had depression although it runs in my family. I pride myself on being able to just keep going no matter what but I feel like I’ve finally reached my limit.
Regarding Christmas with the family, I’ve bought all the presents, wrapped them, planned the food, bought it and I’ll be cooking it. It’s just the four of us and I obviously wanted to make it as special as possible but I just feel so empty and bleh even thinking about it.
And I’m also the sort of person who needs regular time alone but with both me and husband wfh and the little ones, it’s nigh on impossible.
I’m not expecting anything from posting this but just wanted to get it out there and off my chest.
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Really trying not to feel depressed
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1wokeuplikethis · 21/12/2020 18:20
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