I have no idea where to post this. And I have name changed.
I am 30 years old and didn't think about this for all these years until I saw the man who did this about 3 years ago.
When I was 13 I was so naive and hadn't even kissed a boy. Me and my Friend met a group of boys a year older and hung around with them for a few weeks (when I say hung around I literally mean barely spoke just hung around in the group)
One day they asked me to meet and I went, we got on a bus and I didn't know where we was going (felt to scared to ask). They took me to an empty house (one of theirs) and one of the boys asked me to give him oral sex. I became really scared and i knew I was in a terrible situation. I didn't know how to do that or what to do but I said yes out of panic. Without going into detail You can imagine it wasn't very successful. But I knew all the friends were watching and laughing behind me. I was so humiliated and terrified. Thank god there wasn't camera phones back then.
I can't even remember how I managed to get out of there.
I feel like this is my fault because I said yes, even though I said yes out of fear.
Can anyone help me clarify my feelings. Now I have my own daughter I feel differently about it, like this wouldn't be her fault.
Please or to access all these features
Please
or
to access all these features
Join the discussion and meet other Mumsnetters on our free online chat forum.
Chat
Was the sexual assault or am I just an idiot?
32 replies
user191264 · 06/10/2020 09:41
OP posts:
Please create an account
To comment on this thread you need to create a Mumsnet account.