In March, I had my second DS. When he was 6 days old and lockdown had started, my 2 year old DS1 woke up in the night with a sore throat and temperature. He had a seizure and an ambulance was called. They couldn't do a covid test and they couldn't look in his mouth or ears as a ENT doctor had died that week from the hospital he was in, as he had contracted covid.
I was absolutely terrified, full of hormones from just having had DS2, and couldn't go in the ambulance or to the hospital with DS. I was worried about the germs they would get at the hospital, the germs the paramedics would bring in too.
The next morning DS1 came home and was still poorly. His temperature was getting higher throughout the day despite having Calpol. He was getting worse and worse and I called 111 but the wait was hours long. Out of hours doctors were full, my dr surgery was closed. In the end he had another seizure and another ambulance took him to hospital and the same thing happened, the same worries happened.
I couldn't see my parents because of lockdown, DH was working from home throughout. I realllly wanted the support from my mum.
When DS1 had the seizures he had a spike in temperature and woke up screaming in the night.
Since this incident in March (he recovered after a course of antibiotics) I worry constantly. I have nightmares almost every night. From the moment he is in bed I'm worried sick waiting to hear him scream. I check his temperature all the time in the night by going in and touching his head. Every time he moves on the monitor my heart races waiting for something bad to happen.
I recognise I am not acting rationally. I don't know why this is affecting me so badly- nothing really happened, he is a healthy little boy, he recovered quickly. I can't help my reactions though. If I hear him in the night calling me for any reason my heart races, I can't catch my breath, and then I get a terrible headache straight afterwards and can't go back to sleep, just lay there worrying.
I don't know how to move on?
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Why can't I get over this small incident, and how can I?
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mcgonagalscat · 22/09/2020 23:26
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