I need some support/advice

[Buddlyboos]

Hi there
I just joined mumsnet today. Needed to vent and maybe get some words of encouragement!
I’m having the worst year I’ve ever had. My head feels like it’s going to explode! March was my birthday, I invited a few friends over for quiet drinks, it was a disaster! She got so drunk on wine, became very argumentative (which she has previous for) her and my fiancé ended up rowing, she kicked our bedroom door open and hit him. It was awful, we’ve been friends since we were kids but my fiancé wants nothing more to do with her and she was without question going to be one of my bridesmaids. She said stuff to him that he said he’ll never forgive which i understand. We’re kind of talking through text now but not actually spoken, she apologised to me but only after I contacted her about 3 months later! Anyway, on top of that, my fiancé was made redundant and he’s now working for himself but it’s quite stressful as the wage is not guaranteed each month and we’re both very worried about keeping our house. My fiancé’s dad had a stroke a few months ago and thankfully he survived but aspects of his personality have changed and he’s going to have to move into sheltered housing. His mum has Alzheimer’s. I was taken to court back in May as my ex partner and father of my daughter has caused problems for 6 years since I left him. He’s a nasty piece of work and I don’t think he’ll ever stop. Very controlling, narcissistic and Jekyll and Hyde type personality. I’m exhausted with it. I’m on anxiety tablets due to the stress he’s caused. I had to change solicitors and my parents are helping with the cost but it’s bankrupting us. To top it all off my dad has just been diagnosed with skin cancer Stage 2 Melanoma. He just had a scan to see if it’s spread, so waiting for results of that. I honestly don’t know how much more I can take. I couldn’t sleep last night. Eventually went back to bed at 2am and cried. Wtf is going on this year?! I’ve been getting heart palpitations again which was why I was put on tablets, and the other night I couldn’t breathe properly, almost like a panic attack. I’m struggling with work, I work on reception, it’s hard if you’re feeling miserable, to look happy for everyone. Can anyone help?? Thanks x

[Stickyuptail]

That is a heck of a lot of awful things to be going through and all at once. You poor thing. It’s not surprising you are totally worn down by it all and struggling with panic attack symptoms.

Can you go on sick leave? Just to try reduce the pressure your under for a while?

It’s beyond stressful and so hard to be caught up with things you are powerless to change such as your DPs Mum and your Dads illnesses. At this moment you need to look after yourself and accept any help and support going. Maybe the GP would consider a short course of sleeping tablets just to try get you back into a better pattern of sleep as insomnia just adds to the general feeling of being utterly overwhelmed.

There seems to be some sort of rule that major problems can’t just happen one at a time but land in a whole great shitload all at once.