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My partner is addicted to crack and heroin AMA

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Adventuritis Mon 18-Jan-21 23:51:05

Just want to be able to help if anyone has suspicions about a loved one...
There are so many misconceptions.

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AllTheWayFromLondonDAMN Mon 18-Jan-21 23:52:10

I’ve got one: are you or have you ever been a drug user yourself?

HoneysuckIejasmine Mon 18-Jan-21 23:52:51

Why are they still your partner? I think I could support DH with this sort of addiction but I would definitely be divorcing him too.

covidaintacrime Mon 18-Jan-21 23:54:19

Is your partner in recovery or still using?
Do you have kids / would you want them?
Have you ever considered leaving?

chipsandgin Mon 18-Jan-21 23:54:39

Why are you with him? Also do you have or want kids?

Nannyamc Mon 18-Jan-21 23:56:41

Nip this in the bud envolve a third party. Rehab or out you cannot do this alone. Make or break is the only answer save yourself years of misery

Wearywithteens Mon 18-Jan-21 23:58:37

I’m guessing he’s a high earning/wealthy addict rather than a Trainspotting type addict. How often does he need to have ‘a hit’? (sorry I don’t know the vernacular).

SnickersnotMArs Tue 19-Jan-21 00:01:20

I looked after someone in their last weeks. It was heartbreaking and they were a lovely person.

How long has your partner been addicted for? How did they get into it in the first place.

OwlLovesTea Tue 19-Jan-21 00:05:44

What sort of relationship is it possible to have?

Do you not want to take a step back and prioritise yourself?

How can this be better than being single?

I don't mean to sound unsympathetic, you must have a very hard life. I hope you feel that you could walk away, and you're not staying because you feel you have to.

In my limited capacity to understand this, I cannot imagine any other scenario besides feeling obliged to stay.

covidaintacrime Tue 19-Jan-21 00:06:45

In my limited capacity to understand this, I cannot imagine any other scenario besides feeling obliged to stay


smoothchange Tue 19-Jan-21 00:07:00

Do you have children?

Takethereigns Tue 19-Jan-21 00:08:16

Were they already an addict when you started a relationship with them? If yes did you know about it?

covidaintacrime Tue 19-Jan-21 00:10:19

How did you find out about the addiction?
Has the pandemic affected your partner's access to crack and heroin, or made it more risky? e.g. police checks
Are you afraid your partner will die?

Turnedouttoes Tue 19-Jan-21 00:11:13

How did they get into it? If they are a “professional” type, who do they buy it from and where do they find dealers?

I obviously wouldn’t want to but I always wonder how people find out about where to buy drugs. I wouldn’t have a clue but perhaps I’m very sheltered.

covidaintacrime Tue 19-Jan-21 00:13:25

Sorry I'm quickfiring as I think of more -

Are these the first addictions your partner has had, or do they have a history of addictive behaviour?
Is your partner typically a "happy" person?
Are you married or will you marry them in the future?

Yohoheaveho Tue 19-Jan-21 00:13:50

Holy cow batman heavy subject
Crack AND heroin😳
Surely one or the other would be enough😟
Ok my question is what's your opinion about legalisation of drugs, yes or no? Or should that be which ones and why 🤔

whoamongstus Tue 19-Jan-21 00:15:09

How well functioning are they day to day? Are they intending to get clean?

I worked in addiction services for a while and while lots of our clients were the (horrible) stereotype of a heroin/crack user, we had plenty who you wouldn't have known to see or interact with them. It was interesting and opened my eyes as to the stereotypes people have about drug users.

covidaintacrime Tue 19-Jan-21 00:23:35

Slow response AMAs always remind me how horribly bad my patience is grin

OwlLovesTea Tue 19-Jan-21 00:23:38


*In my limited capacity to understand this, I cannot imagine any other scenario besides feeling obliged to stay*


Could anybody feel that love was enough?

I'm not judging, just viewing it from the outside. I stayed with an abusive man for far too long.

It eroded my self-worth. So, I suspect the OP will end up in the same place even if the man who takes her there has different problems.

Look after yourself OP.

I hope you have some boundaries that cannot be crossed in place.

covidaintacrime Tue 19-Jan-21 00:25:00

Could anybody feel that love was enough?

I think I could. For a partner if they were trying to get clean, and it was relatively managed (as managed as an addiction can be). For a child, yes definitely.

If the partner were a bastard in other contexts or I didn't love them very much, definitely not though.

MadameBlobby Tue 19-Jan-21 00:28:31

Why haven’t you left him?

OwlLovesTea Tue 19-Jan-21 00:32:53

crack and heroin? Both of them?

I 'd hope that I could love somebody without being in a relationship with them I could hope that they got clean, but I'd value my own survival and my own sense of myself enough to take myself away from the context of a relationship.

I think a 12 step programme suggests accepting a higher power than yourself, god as you understand it, and no romantic relationships. That's if you're trying to get clean obviously.

If he's not even trying........ I couldn't make that seem ok in my head.

You have to love yourself too.

Adventuritis Tue 19-Jan-21 00:58:35

Wow! So many questions- I didn’t think people would be so interested! I just know that when I first found out I needed information and honest real information was hard to find so thought maybe this could help someone.
AllTheWayFromLondonDAMN Definitely not! I barely even drink alcohol. Have never tried any drugs and never would, I just don’t feel the need!

To try and answer more questions..
I didn’t know when we got together. I was very naive.
I’m older so my children have left home. Obviously they don’t know but they understand he has problems.

Wearywithteens no actually probably more towards the train spotting end although I have to say that’s nothing like the reality I know and I now know many many addicts.
He can survive on twice a day but functions better on 3 times - more than that and he’s taking the piss!

Yohoheaveho it’s a thing they do... nearly all of them do “snowballs” so they mix the heroin and the crack and inject it together, the crack takes you up and the heroin brings you down again but it kinda works together to be a better hit apparently.🥴
Regarding legalisation - I would definitely say no. It’s like cigarettes are legal but you still get them half price from the Turkish shop illegally, in the same vein you’re never going to really monitor it. They need help, but help to understand why they do it and find other coping strategies otherwise they’ll kill themselves. I would say at least one if his friends has died each month I’ve known tragic! But many of them feel ( because I talk to them a fair bit) that this is their life and will never be better, so fuck it!
Owllovestea It’s not hard really, I mean it’s frustrating and expensive but a hundred times easier than living with an alcoholic! It’s doesn’t really affect his personality- he just uses enough to “keep him normal” I’ve only seen him “off his head” when he’s smoked weed, and I hate that! Honestly a bit of heroin is so much easier to live with! Sounds ridiculous but true!
It frustrates me because i know he could have a more fulfilling life if he could stop. We’ve tried so many things.. so many! He now believes the only way to stop would be to move away and I’m unsure about doing that because if it doesn’t work then I’ve given up everything. I guess I’d just come back though!
He’s had a tough life. His mum was 14, she sold drugs to get by, he’s never known a life without being surrounded by drugs and alcohol. She died when he was 19 and he’s never really had parental guidance so I suppose I feel sorry for him. Of course I love him, we have a great time together and laugh a lot and because my children are older I can afford the energy to put into him. I could give up any time I wanted to and maybe I will. We’ve only been together a couple of years, but maybe just maybe he might make it through and that would be so bloody amazing!
I’m not sure it’s better than being single because I love being single but it’s interesting and I’ve learnt so much in the last two years. I think he’s worth the effort for now but if nothing changes and he gives up on himself then I’ll have to leave for my own sanity. He does understand that I need time alone sometimes just to breathe! It’s easy for people to say leave but the addiction is only a part of him, a part we both hate! We are kind of united in our fight against it but at the end of the day I believe it’s just luck that I’m only addicted to cups of tea with oatmilk rather than smack! I was lucky that I didn’t have his life because I I had I don’t think I’d be here now.

Covidaintacrime only difference is the prices went up at first! I’m pretty sure the police don’t really care! It’s so damn obvious when you know it’s hard to believe they could stop it all really.

Turnedouttoes - if we’re ever in a different town and he needs to score he’ll just ask someone that’s begging if they know where to get stuff... if they speak English they know where and for a small cut they’ll normally take you.

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DianaT1969 Tue 19-Jan-21 01:23:38

Does he hold down a job? If he didn't have his own money, do you think he would steal from you? What's the average life expectancy for a user? Does he drive?

covidaintacrime Tue 19-Jan-21 01:30:59

nearly all of them do “snowballs” so they mix the heroin and the crack and inject it together, the crack takes you up and the heroin brings you down again but it kinda works together to be a better hit apparently.

That's very concerning, snowballs are fucking deadly.

Honestly a bit of heroin is so much easier to live with! Sounds ridiculous but true!

Are you worried he's going to die? You seem a bit blasé about the whole thing, honestly (maybe not your intention though).

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