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DEPRESSED BECAUSE I HAD MASSIVE WEIGHT LOSS BUT NOW PUTTING IT BACK ON!! HELP!!

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candidkate · 18/02/2015 16:30

Since going from a 18 down to a 10, I've started to notice that I'm putting weight back on. I work 60 hours a week and it's very telephone / meeting / desk based. In the beginning I was so rushed off my feet I didn’t bring in packed lunch and would eat a processed food from starbucks every single day and god knows what else.

I know better and would feel disgusting afterwards and that only made me eat alone at my desk more. I wanted / want to rip the bulge from my stomach. I’d go to the loo, take off my top and stare in the mirror in disgust. All my life I was a size 6-8 and I’ve only been having weight problems for the past 5 years. Initially it was the pill, but I’ve been off it for ages now and I just don’t have any more will power with this busy lifestyle .Before I got this job I used to go to the gym every single day and loved it. I aim to go before work everyday however when I wake up I’m so tired from the day before I can’t bear to get up. I’ve tried to perhaps just go to the gym on weekends and cut calories at work but when I do I cannot concentrate and get very tired. I’ve already started making packed lunch but he weight wont shift unless I get my arse in the gym.

Aside from literally having no time emotionally I feel destroyed. This yo – yo journey is more about weight. My family mocked me, my mother discouraged me from eating all the time, she called me lazy and fat despite being morbidly obsese herself. It was like a fun game to them. After coming off the pill I worked day and night to shift the weight and managed to, but I was living in The West Midlands alone in a studio flat with no money. I downloaded insanity from the internet for free (illegal and naughty I know) and worked out everyday. I was studying and only worked 16 hours a week and it was an easy stress free job.

Emotionally I’m like a zombie, its only weight yes, but I genuinely feel like an alien has invaded my body. As soon as the GP gave me a wakeup call 4 years ago and told me I was overweight for my height, I thought this journey was going to be a piece of cake. At the time my weight had only been an issue for about 6 months. I put it on so quickly. I thought I’d loose it in a month. It dragged on for 18 months. I can’t even remember my old body. Even now at a 10-12 I still don’t feel like me. The stretch marks, the cellulite, the excess skin on my breasts – they seem like bloody battle scars.
I’m so over hating my body, but you know what- I’m also FED UP with this diet/gym shit too.

How do i loose this weight with a 60 hour job, keep it off, AND KEEP WHATS LEFT OF MY SANITY!!!

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Skinheadmermaid · 19/02/2015 19:58

Do you have to work sixty hours a week? If your doing unpaid overtime, relax, scale back. Life is too short. (Unless your a doctor or a lawyer or something).
If you're that stressed from work you need to address your work issues and get your head in a good place before you go back to working on your body issues.
When you are stressed your body produces a particular hormone which means it clings to fat easier.
However that said, exercise is a great stress buster. Can you not go to the gym or to an exercise class in the evenings? It doesn't have to be everyday, start with a couple of times a week. Try martial arts, when I had my awful job, smacking a punch bag and knocking people over made me feel a whole lot better. Or yoga, to help your stress. (Although I don't personally rate it much for weight loss)

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candidkate · 20/02/2015 13:57

I can't cut back for my job, its not unpaid overtime, I don't want to out myself but the 60 hours are necessary. I simply don't have the energy for an evening class - I cant diet because cutting calories would turn me into mush. I feel so uselss

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Nationaltrusthandbook · 20/02/2015 14:15

Do you get a lunchbreak at all that you could exercise in? Your life sounds very stressful OP, I hope you can find a way to reduce your hours. Is it just a temporary situation working 60 hours per week?

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Tanukisan · 21/02/2015 18:02

You need to go paleo or primal! Sorry I probably sound like a right old bore across the boards but we really have this diet shit back to front. Have a look at Mark's Daily Apple for some ideas.

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ppeatfruit · 22/02/2015 13:14

No you NEED Paul Mackenna really really!!! I lost the3 stone I needed to. It's a totally different way to look at eating ; it's HOW, WHEN and WHERE and WHY we eat.

He gives you self confidence, help for cravings, low self esteem and learning to love (or at least ACCEPT) yourself!!!!

You've just got into a few habits that can be changed!! Grin There's a very good support thread on here BTW.

I'm maintaining my weight loss with Paul Mc. Good luck!!

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HermioneWeasley · 22/02/2015 13:17

Do you have kids as well as a demanding job?

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TalkinPeace · 22/02/2015 15:11

Think in terms of meal times and gaps
Think in terms of work times and gaps
Think in terms of leisure times and gaps

Once you divide your day up in a sane manner (with food only filling 3 x 4 minutes of that day) life will start to make more sense

NO Snacking.
CLOSE the kitchen / wallet between meals
try never to eat in the office

what you choose to eat comes down to preference

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Tanukisan · 22/02/2015 15:18

I don't think paleo and PM are mutually exclusive, ppeat! They'd work nicely together I think.

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Mrsstevejones · 22/02/2015 15:39

Low carb high fat, works for me and i feel amazing, loads of energy ( even started exercising again with 2 non sleeping children), sleep better - i actually wake up refreshed. There is a thread on here, come and join us we are lovely and supportive. You CAN do this.

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Tanukisan · 22/02/2015 17:11

I agree that the BIWI's bootcamp is a great place to start.

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Cnmorgan13 · 22/02/2015 19:48

I get where you're coming from. I lost 3 stones on lighter life and was happily maintaining my weight. Cue a major change in lifestyle and I've put back on about a stone and a half. Just cannot get my head back in the game. Restated again for the umpteenth time but feeling a bit more positive about it. Urgh, hate this weight loss business, just want to skip to maintenance again lol

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Quitelikely · 22/02/2015 21:40

Well you have got to start taking responsibility for what you are eating. Simple as.

You make it sound like your so busy with the sixty hours I thought to myself well how does she find the time to eat.

In all honesty if work is your weak spot you need to be having something like a tin of soup or maybe a slimfast for lunch.

Also since you have time to go to starbucks then you ought to replace that trip with a lunch time walk.

Something else: you say you were a six to eight until the pill. Can you analyse what you ate then compared to now.

Don't get so down about it. A size 10/12 is quite a slim look.

Also don't take advice or criticisms from your mother, she's not really in a position to criticise anybody about their weight and she certainly isn't going to be able to support you with an attitude like the one she has towards you.

Good luck. You can achieve what you want. You have the power.

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ppeatfruit · 23/02/2015 09:41

Tanukisan I agree but IMO & E everyone is different so not everyone is happy or healthy on e.g. the Atkins (it made me feel ill).

I used to be on the P.M. thread but there are some inflexible people on it. He does say eat ANYTHING (which is for those with emotional issues about food) but if you eat really slowly you can't eat junk which is true. It makes you eat more healthy foods.

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Dowser · 23/02/2015 17:15

On SW you can have a 300ml portion of baxters soup as free food. Take some foil wrapped chicken breast. Or cube it up with some rice and veg.

Do you like porridge . You can put porridge oats and hot milk from SW in a wide mouthed flask and it should be cooked around the 3 pm energy slump.

It's all about planning.

If you feel so tired all the time I wouldn't think about exercising.

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