Looking for advice and more than happy to be told I sound like a spoiled brat. (Well maybe "happy" is not the right word....!)
DP and I got married 2 months ago. We had a short engagement, and a tiny wedding, partly because his mother is very seriously ill. I also work abroad so it was difficult to plan remotely. I basically came home to the UK for a few days and booked the venue, photographer, hairdresser, florist etc based on online research. Extensive research (!), but obviously without the benefit of time to meet people and inspect things etc. I got a dress made at a local dressmaker who came well-recommended and was not cheap, using fabric which I chose and had imported. I was hoping that my mother would help, but she was not interested at all - however at this point I was congratulating myself nor being non-Bridezilla and chilled. :-)
DP and I had a last-minute wobble after I found some messages between him and his ex-gf which were a couple of years old, but were sent during my relationship with DP. Their content was sexual and inappropriate, and on top of all the wedding stress it knocked me for six because I never, ever thought he would cheat. It also opened up a few old wounds because I had repeatedly asked him to stop communicating with her, because of various duplicitous things she had done. After finding the messages I (stupidly) contacted her and asked her to stay away from DP, and she responded with vicious personal abuse. I spent most of the days leading up to the wedding either in tears or trying to finish an urgent work project for clients who really didn't give a toss that I was getting married. (The photographer - more on him later - has managed to take about 10 photos of me on my blackberry on the wedding day, but none of me with the guests...)
Anyway, on the wedding day the weather was great, the venue was beautiful and the hairdresser and florist also did a great job. However, my dress was awful. It sounds ridiculous but I had been so upset and then so busy that i hadn't even tried everything on together and it just looked crap and I forgot my earrings. The photographer was pretty disastrous as well. Obviously all the ones with me and my dress were shocking but he did not even manage to photograph all of the guests. I look stressed, I'll and I have swollen eyes. My dress is too long and the neckline flops open.
My mother insisted on buying the hideously overpriced album, which made it difficult for me to complain. Part of me suspects she did this to spite me because even my close friends admit the photographs are bloody terrible! I honestly want to cry every time I see them.
I am not sure whether the tears are really about the day or the last minute wobble. I am committed to the marriage and we are TTC. However, I am seriously thinking about organising another ceremony just to help expunge some of the terrible memories and so that we have some photographs to show to our kids (hopefully) which show us looking relaxed and happy (and in my case, not looking as though I fell backwards through a jumble sale!)
Is this insane? Has anyone ever done it? Has anyone else just felt gutted over how their wedding "went"? I honestly am not usually vain or needy but I feel so disappointed.
Sorry it's long and well done if you got this far!
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YoungGirlGrowingOld · 13/11/2014 13:36
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