Hi everyone.
I'm just after some advice as I don't really know what I should (or can) do in this situation.
Last May, I lost my dad very suddenly and unexpectedly. He was only 55. We were very close and I was, and still am, devastated. Devastated doesn't even seem the right word. I am finding it really hard.
My headteacher was very supportive and understanding, and in total I had four and a half weeks off (one of those week was half term, so it was three and a half officially). Then after there were only 4 weeks till summer so I literally just bumbled my way through, leaving at 3.30 and doing what ever I could to just get through the days.
Since we came back in September it's as if everyone expects me back to normal. I'm staying in work till 6pm, we're due ofsted and they're piling on the pressure.
Last half term was a massive struggle for me and I actually don't know how I got through it. I do know that I was doing the best job I could for my class though, and this worried and upsets me. I know I could do better if I was in a better frame of mind. I'm very snappy and shouty now and this is not how I wanted to be as a teacher.
Just to say as well, I have a very supportive family and partner, so I've got people to talk to. I tried counselling but it wasn't for me. I'm also now under cbt for a separate anxiety issue, so wouldn't be able to undertake counselling ATM alongside that.
My question is this: when I go back on Monday, I want to tell my headteacher, who seems to think I'm ok, that I'm really struggling to do my job in the way I need to do it whilst coping with my bereavement and loss. Should I tell her this? And if I do what can she actually do? I'm not even sure what I want to gain from the conversation, I just know that I can't carry on juggling everything in the same way
Any advice would be really appreciated, thank you
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BumblingBee89 · 28/10/2015 10:40
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