I feel completely rubbish - I am completely useless.
Had a difficult week last week and just don't know if I can continue.The week ended with me crying in my room and I spent most of yesterday evening crying. I have been excluded from a couple of things this week which has made me feel so awful and has made me realise that in spite of my best efforts I am most definitely not a valued member of the staff/team. My HOD has been absolutely horrible and the final straw was an unpleasant email from a parent - just when I thought things could not get any worse. I have plummeted rapidly to the point where I am having thoughts of self harming to avoid the situation. I have suffered badly from depression in the past and I don't know if I am having some sort of depressive episode and so can't think clearly or if I really am as terrible and useless at my job as everybody thinks. My husband keeps asking me to tell him what has happened but I can't talk about it because I am so embarrassed about being such a failure and so obviously disliked. Don't know what to do - not expecting any solutions really but had to off load somewhere.
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Don't know if I can face Monday.
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itonlygetsbetter · 10/10/2015 16:50
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