I hope that someone out there can help me... I really don't know where to turn.
I am a mature NQT. I worked for over 10 years before re-training. I enjoyed the PGCE year and performed well. I left college confident that, with experience and support, I could become a good teacher. Four months on that confidence has gone and I am seriously considering resigning (if not leaving the profession altogether).
I am working in a very good state school that has completely turned around over the past 10 years. On paper it is an outstanding (and indeed amazing) school. However, almost since the first day, I have known that the school is not right for me. The final straw came yesterday when I witnessed a senior leader ranting at a large group of children for over 20 minutes (none of these children were being punished) during this time he told them that they were:
- 'worthless human beings'
- that being at XXX school was a privilege not a right
- that they were lucky they lived in a democracy because if he had his way there would be a lot of children who would be kicked out immediately
- that he could look at some of them in the eye and guarantee they'd be in prison in 5 years time
When I told a colleague how shocked I was at this she told me that I would get used to it and if couldn't get used to it then I wouldn't last long. The thing is, I don't want to get used to the culture of this school.
My question is this: Should I stick it out for the year in order to finish the NQT year or should I follow my gut instinct and resign in the hope of starting another NQT year in a different school in September?
[FYI: financially I'm reasonably secure and could do contracting/freelance work to bridge the gap]