My cocker spaniel has cancer :(

(37 Posts)
Ingles2 Thu 27-Dec-12 22:03:46

That's it really.... Am gutted and can't stop crying which is ridiculous as it's just the dog... But I love her and can't imagine life without her.
She's 10 and we noticed a lump about a month ago which has grown really quickly. Vet thought it was more likely to be a cyst at first, but x rays today confirmed it and as her chest is also full of tumours he said there was no point in operating. So that's it,.. I'm waiting now for the day we put her to sleep. I get the impression the vet thinks it'll be in the next week or so, but he said it was up to me
Am so sad, she's my first and only dog.

ijustwant8hours Thu 27-Dec-12 22:06:04

She isn't just the dog, she is your dog. thanks and I am so sorry.

PartridgeInASpicyPearTree Thu 27-Dec-12 22:09:50

So sorry. Like 8hours said she isn't just a dog she is family. Don't try to squash it down, it is okay to grieve for her.

Susieloo Thu 27-Dec-12 22:10:11

I'm so sorry, how devastating and painful for youhmm

Ingles2 Thu 27-Dec-12 22:17:07

Thankyou for your sympathy... My dh and sons are upset but obviously think I've gone mad with all this sobbing... sad
It's just shes been such a fantastic dog and pet.. I didn't realise it would be this hard, I knew it was comingsad

AndARedwingInAPearTree Thu 27-Dec-12 23:27:11

I'm so sorry Ingles, that sounds like a real shock sad

Charliefox Fri 28-Dec-12 08:13:02

I'm so sorry. Such an awful, heart breaking thing to face. I wish you strength for when the time comes.

Lilyloo Fri 28-Dec-12 08:42:31

So sorry we lost our girl when she was 10 to heart failure we were all devastated, much love to you all x

So sorry. I have been through exactly this, two summers ago. It was like losing a member of the family and I was surprised how devastated we all were. sad

MadMumToThree Fri 28-Dec-12 08:56:22

I am so sorry x we lost both our cockers to cancer - one last year also a very fast growing lump and then this last August her daughter - didn't know until her spleen ruptured - devastating they are such wonderful companions x

Lifeisontheup Fri 28-Dec-12 09:28:11

Ingles You kindly posted on my thread about the death of my old girl yesterday so I know what you're going through. We were told that ours had acute renal failure which causes heart failure about three months ago and the vet said it could be any time.
We decided that as long as she was happy and not in pain we would not have her PTS but as soon as she showed signs of pain we would. I'm glad we didn't as she was happy right to the end but you will know when yours is ready to go.

Ingles2 Fri 28-Dec-12 21:08:25

Thanks everyone... I an so grateful for the support.
How are you feeling today life? You must be totally wrung out?. I've been back at work today,but with such a headache from crying and puffy eyes from hell.. smile
Well pippa has been asleep most of the day it seems... She got up when I came home for turkey and a cuddle but today's about it... It's going to have to be soon, this is no life for what was a lively, fun loving dog who loved nothing more than chasing balls and rabbits through our orchard.
Also the skin around the tumour is bleeding where she is licking it... The vet wasn't very concerned but it looks so sore...she doesn't seem to be in pain, but she's not really with us either if you know what I mean. She's got a check up on the 2nd and I think unless she takes a then for the worse, that'll probably be the day. I'm fitting in as many cuddles as I can now

kid Sat 29-Dec-12 15:46:51

I am so sorry to hear your sad news, its awful when our pets die, even harder when we have to make the difficult decision of when to end their suffering.
I remember hearing that its always better to pts a day too soon than a day too late.

We had to make the decision to put our yorkie to sleep. He was 14 and had multiple organ failure. It happened while we were on holiday so we never got to say bye to him. But, it would have been cruel to keep him alive and suffering just for us to be able to say goodbye. I didn't tell dc for a long time about us having him pts, I let them believe he had passed away.
I hate owning pets at times, but I guess they bring so much love, it's worth it.

My other dog died at 7 months old, I never thought I'd get over him dying. I now have a 2 1/2 year old springer who I hope will be with us for many years to come.

Ingles2 Sun 30-Dec-12 13:16:05

Thanks kid....
well, I think the time has come already sad
Today, she's become incontinent, she's lost any sign of a wag, and isn't really moving and the biggest change, she's refused all food including sausages, black pudding and turkeysad
She doesn't seem to be in pain thank god, but has given up... am heartbroken
sad

MadMumToThree Sun 30-Dec-12 14:01:19

Holding your hand today x

Ingles2 Sun 30-Dec-12 14:39:59

Thankyou madmum.. I appreciate it

Ingles - kind thoughts today x

SecretSantaFix Sun 30-Dec-12 15:04:53

Be kind to yourself.

It's the hardest decision for anyone who has an animal in pain, better for them but so, so horrible for you.

Ingles2 Mon 31-Dec-12 08:31:16

She's gone sad died during the night...
I thought there was a good chance of it happening so gave her plenty of cuddles before I went to bed...
I miss her already sad

kid Mon 31-Dec-12 10:13:56

So sorry ingles
You will miss her for a long time, but you will also remember all of the lovely times you shared and start to let go of the sadness over time.
I still get upset about my puppy dying and that happened in may 2010. It's not something that ever goes away but it definitely gets easier over time.
People who don't have pets will find it hard to understand but who cares, losing a pet is no different to losing a member of your family.

PartridgeInASpicyPearTree Mon 31-Dec-12 13:17:28

Run free at the bridge inglesdog. Very sorry for your loss.

outtolunchagain Mon 31-Dec-12 13:33:02

Oh no,so sad,we have a cocker too and they are such special little dogs .How lovely though that she died at home and in her own basket,thats a very special gift that not many dogs have now.Look after yourself ,she was your friend and it doesn't matter if human or canine

Ingles2 Mon 31-Dec-12 19:44:00

Thankyou for your messages... Such a hard day, on my 11yr old son especially. He has taken it very badly and has spent a good chunk of the day in tears sad he loves the rainbow bridge story but it has us both sobbing hysterically. It will take a long time to get over this, she was such a special little dog... I've never met a dog as devoted as she was...

Lifeisontheup Tue 01-Jan-13 17:32:33

So sorry for you and your family. There's such an empty space isn't there? We've just lit the fire for the first time since the night before our Pippa died and there's no smell of slightly singed fur from her lying as close as possible and I have to sweep the kitchen floor as I have no furry hoover.sad

Ingles2 Tue 01-Jan-13 20:56:03

hi life ... thanks for your message...how are you feeling?
I can't believe how painful this is.. there's just a bloody great big hole where she should be...trotting at my heels (literally), hoovering up anything I drop in the kitchen, running to the gate every time I open the kitchen door and I keep thinking I catch a glimpse of her and have to look again to remind myself she's not there sad
Pippa was my first dog, I never had a childhood pet, so this is my first experience of losing a long term pet...and my god, it hurts as if it was literally one of my family.
I had no idea.....

SecretNutellaFix Tue 01-Jan-13 21:10:33

I still wonder why my Kes isn't there to welcome me when I go to visit my mother and then remember. I half expect a soaking wet sheepdog to come in from outside with a solid rubber ball in her mouth and drop it on my bare feet.

That was over two years ago. She was my birthday present for my 19th Birthday. It gets easier

Ingles, I am so so sorry. We lost our beloved Cocker Spaniel, at the age of five, following an accident. It was heart breaking. For months and months afterwards I imagined (almost 'felt', but that may be a bit woo) that he was trotting alongside me, even at work...

The pain lessened when, after a year, we got another dog. Not a cocker spaniel as we could not face having a dog similar to Dill.

Sending you love x

Ingles2 Tue 01-Jan-13 21:13:39

thanks Nutella... I can't imagine it at the moment, but I know you're right.

Ingles2 Tue 01-Jan-13 21:16:15

thankyou nine..x

MrsRandom78 Tue 01-Jan-13 21:25:50

So sorry Ingles hmm She wasn't 'like' a member of the family, she WAS a member of the family so you shouldn't feel bad for grieving. Big hugs.

Paddlinglikehell Tue 01-Jan-13 22:41:07

So sorry for you, but it was lovely she went at home without all the stress of going into the vets etc.

We lost our terrier a few weeks before Christmas, we miss her terribly, the crying has stopped - well mostly - but it still hurts so much. Thinking of you all.

Lifeisontheup Wed 02-Jan-13 09:23:15

I woke up this morning thinking I heard her bark, was half out of bed before I remembered. sad Got to go and collect her ashes from the vets today, we're going to scatter them on the big common nearby which was one of her favourite walks.

Ingles Isn't it strange that both our spaniels were called Pippa? Hope they're having fun somewhere with lots of mud and compliant rabbits.

mistlethrush Wed 02-Jan-13 11:56:09

We lost our wonderful dog back in October. I'm still upset, I still miss her. We got another dog quite quickly - DS is only 7.5 and we wanted something to focus him on - not a replacement, but a different dog. We have found a lovely new dog - another rescue, aged 2, and are having to do lots with her. But I still miss our old lady and wish we had had the year / 18 months more that we expected with her.

Thinking of all who have lost dogs recently.

biff23 Wed 02-Jan-13 18:37:46

So sorry to hear this. Devastating news for you. I have a cocker too and would be heartbroken if anything happened. Such wonderful dogs.

Ingles2 Sat 05-Jan-13 21:05:51

I'm sorry I missed these messages before.... But thank you anyway..
Most of the time I'm busy at work and its fine, then I come home and like you life , I think I hear a bark or catch a movement sad
I found a gorgeous pic of her yesterday and stuck it on our notice board in the kitchen, but every time I caught sight of her, I got that lump stuck in my throat.
Ds2 said seeing her, made him really sad, so I've put it away for now, until we,re ready. I've got to pick the ashes up as well... I think we,ll scatter them under her favourite apple tree.
Pippa is a great name for a spaniel life smile .and I'll join you in hoping they are happy, wherever they may be. X

mistlethrush Sat 05-Jan-13 22:00:06

DS was in tears today thinking about mistledog... even though he was holding mistlehound's lead at the time. Mistlehound is lovely - but she's not and never will be mistledog... she will never occupy the same 'hole' as mistledog, it will be a different one.

biff23 Tue 08-Jan-13 23:04:28

So sorry Ingles. Am tearing up thinking of you. At least she died at home with her loving family, that's the sweetest way x

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