This relates to my brother than DC, but there is a large age gap between us (I am nearly 30 and he is in his late teens) so our relationship has always been closer to a parental one and I have always felt strongly maternal towards him. When we were younger he constantly wanted to play with me; I was his main object of affection and when my parents wanted time out I would babysit and we would constantly have 'sleepovers' and play silly games. I envisaged that when he grew up we would continue to have a close adult relationship and share each other's highs and lows and I was excited for it.
As he got older it became clear he was behind others of his age emotionally, leading eventually to a diagnosis of Asperger's. He found his teenage years tough and still struggles socially, yet enjoys having friends and wants desperately to maintain those friendships he has, so these are now his main focus and priority.
I try to initiate conversation with him but it's clear that a mixture of being a normal teenager (friends are greatest priority) and his condition (loses sight of anything else other than immediate priorities) mean that he has very little time for me and I am lucky to get an 'ok', 'yes' or 'no' out of him. If we do arrange a day out together we have a laugh over trivial matters but nothing deeper. I know that teenagers will be teenagers (asperger's or not) and I don't want to be overbearing, so I let him get on with things, but I can't help feeling an overwhelming sense of loss and disappointment that the relationship I envisaged us having as adults is so different to how I imagined it. I look at photos of him as a toddler and want to cry because I will never see or cuddle that little boy again.
I know that I can't reverse time or do anything but be patient with him and see if anything changes as he grows older - but how do you get through it, especially the feelings of sadness and loss?
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sniffle12 · 02/04/2016 21:12
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