Just want to vent again really. I feel so close to just walking out of the door and could do with some space just to share this with people who may understand. I am so stressed and miserable. I would also love to hear from those parents of 17/18 year olds who have come out the other side.
This is for background, not sympathy, but I am single parent to twins and have had a diagnosis of cancer this year. As a result I have lost the sight in one eye (which has also disfigured that eyelid) and being scanned regularly for metastases (for which there is currently no treatment anyway). I work as full-time as I can and generally do OK keeping the house/family running but am often very skint. I have 17, nearly 18 year old b/g twins.
Currently they spend most of their time either at college or behind closed bedroom doors or socialising. The only time I see their faces is at dinner time (when they bicker at each other and barely reply to me when I try to make conversation), or when I am giving them lifts (we are in rural area with no buses). Most of their replies are grunts or huge sighs or just aggrieved at me even speaking to them. It feels like my daughter finds everything I say an invitation to fight. Their rooms are tips and both could do with getting p/t jobs but are being fairly half-hearted. My son is sailing through his BTEC but needs constant reminding to do the most basic of chores. My daughter appears to be stuffing up her A levels due to inability to concentrate and laziness and socialising. I have done as much as possible to support and encourage them, including getting p/t job leads locally, buying revision guides, making nice meals, paying for the odd special treat, giving lifts to facilitate social life, making their friends welcome.....However, on the other hand, I am aware that I nag (washing, mugs out of room, chores, follow-up on phone calls to jobs, coursework, UCAS forms) and I think some of that might also come under the heading of micro-managing. Most of what I say to them seems to be reminding them or nagging them (which I hate in myself). Sometimes they are a delight and I see the nice kids underneath, but at the moment these glimpses are rare.
I am just tired and stressed and at my limit with nagging to wash up, nagging to do basic chores (tried leaving notes/texts but they were ignored) and getting either sulked at, complained to, argued with or shouted at or just generally treated like a kicking post. Thank you's and pleases are rare. I feel so stressed out and hopeless right now. I don't know what I did wrong or how to have a good relationship with these two (seemingly) ungrateful, lazy arse, unkind kids. What happened to the two I loved spending time with, who were kind, had great manners and actually spoke to me over dinner? And what happened to the understanding, non-nagging, warm mum I used to be?
OK....end of this massive self-pity party. Thanks for reading this. Posting my long gut-spills here is keeping me sane at the moment.
Thanks x
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